SiMpLiCiTy...

懦弱

2010-09-21T21:52:00.003+08:00

最近的我好烦啊。不知道要如何解决，也不知道有没有解决的方法。
是我太自私小气吗？还是这都是女人的反应？
今天的我，又想哭了。也知道哭也于事无补。
虽然给了自己一个期限，却又害怕时间来临时，不会做决定。
突然觉得自己在爱情的游戏里很笨，很蠢，很可笑。
以前一直告诉朋友不要那么笨的一直退让，现在却是自己身陷得无法自拔。
勇敢的爱过，但却也深深地伤过。
要我再选一次，我真的不知道当初爱上你是不是对的决定，也不肯定会在做一样的决定。
或许我心里已有个答案，只是不敢面对。是时候勇敢的面对解决方法了吗？

沟通问题

2010-08-26T23:36:00.001+08:00

人与人之间是很难沟通，还是懒得沟通？

Tired....

2010-07-20T21:57:00.003+08:00

Dean left for Cambodia again.
5 days this time round. No hug from me or him, cos I'm too sleepy!!
hahaha..

Have been attending interviews for the past few days and last week.
Upcoming plans?

MORE INTERVIEWS!!
Totally packed with interviews this week.
Wish me many many much much a lot a lot very very good luck man.
I really need it cos i need a good job badly.

Mid-Twenties

2010-04-05T07:44:00.002+08:00

Hi all, I'm officially mid-twenties now! -.-

I already lived a quarter of my life and i totally dunno how my next 3 quarter or so will turn out.
Today feels..... like a normal Monday. Preparing to go to work as i wait for Dean to prepare.

My three wishes are:

Jian Fei Cheng Gong
Zao Dao Hao Gong Zuo
_ _ _ _ _ _

According to tradition, i am not supposed to say out my last wish.

PLEASE COME TRUE!!

Good romance...

2010-03-02T00:33:00.001+08:00

Imma missing you baby...

米修米修~

2010-03-01T21:34:00.001+08:00

I promised Dean I will write an entry so here i am!

He left for Cambodia this morning and I gave him a farewell hug before I resume my sleep. Haha. It's been long since we're so loving. But I didn't even send him to his door. LOL. So much for being his GF.

Any the way, I hope I can use this week to concentrate on my test this Saturday. Its my last module so I don't want anything bad to happen to it.

Bon voyage and miss you!!

A New Beginning

2010-01-03T21:28:00.001+08:00

It seems like I have been constantly posting negative post. This is like a de-stress channel for me. Will this be a brand new good year for me? I really really hope so. I have a good start for the year by going on a road trip with my friends. Definitely looking forward to more of such trips, but maybe next time I can help in driving too. Haha.

I really really want a dog. What do I need to do in order to have a dog. They bring so much joy and liveliness to a home.

Major major major decisions

2009-12-17T11:03:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow is my day to short-lived freedom. Will finish my exam and enjoy to the fullest until next sem starts.

So many things happened between this and previous entry. Life-changing issues.

But what I really want to blog about, is the major decision one has to make when you grow up.

I don't know is this the correct decision, but for now, I can see myself in it.

Starting a New Lifestyle

2009-10-28T09:25:00.001+08:00

I am trying out "vegetarian" campaign.
Will be eating pure vege for 1 full week, after that resume back to normal food, and alternate between that.

Wish me luck!

P/S: I hope everyone can do a part for the environment.

PP/S: I am not doing this to slim down. I think all the documentaries i watched is taking effect on me. LOL

BAH..

2009-10-19T22:23:00.002+08:00

I did not forget this blog.
But I just do not know what to write here.
I do not want to write about mundane daily tasks, nor do I have the competency to write a comprehensive "essay" about the more exciting events that I attended.

Just a short update on recent events:

- Penang Trip with Dean
- Halloween @ Night Safari with Baoz

Upcoming events that I will TRY to update here:

- JB Trip with KC Gang
- Dean's Birthday (no idea what to do. Surprise him? BAH...)

鸡蛋

2009-07-11T01:03:00.002+08:00

我以为我变坚强了。
我以为我不会再掉眼泪了。
我以为一切都变好了。
我的以为太天真了。

我只是变得更会忍耐。
我只是变得不去计较。
我只是把眼泪吞进肚子里。
我只是没有把事情看得更清楚。
我只是太天真了。

也许忍耐会让一个人变坚强。
也许不计较的日子会更无忧无虑。
也许爱哭的眼泪只会变得更贪婪。
也许装傻也是一种福气。
也许我不应该再那么天真了。

这个世界变了，还是我太老古董了。

Dropped, Struggling, Save and Trip, Satisfied, Troubled

2009-07-09T23:42:00.003+08:00

I dropped one major.
I'm officially a marketing student.
No more tourism marketing student.

I'm struggling to finish all my group assignments.
TOU201 is damn cock.
Am lucky to have good mates for AHRP and we started early.
Not so much of a worry.

I need to save money for a lot of events.
I'm going to Perth.
I'm going to Korea.
I'm going to learn Korean.

Just ended a chalet with Sukuz.
Attended AP wedding and saw many long lost vball friends.
Satisfied.

Having a hard time persuading people to go Perth.
So troubled.

Trying Very Hard

2009-04-27T00:58:00.002+08:00

No matter how hard one person tried, somethings just don't go away.

It is draining me away.

Some Things Just Never Change

2009-04-22T19:14:00.002+08:00

Some things never change.
No, wait.

They do change.
They change from bad to worse.

Me?
I'm still stuck here.

祝我生日快乐

2009-04-04T04:02:00.004+08:00

明天是我的生日，但我今年特别的不想庆祝。
不知道是不是因为一年比一年老了，而不想面对现实。
又或者，我觉得庆祝来庆祝去，还不是一样。
生日年年都有，为何每年都要大费周章的花钱吃大餐呢?
也许，平平淡淡的过一个人的生日，也是一件不错的事。
今年我只想好好的帮自己小小的庆祝。
也已决定买个小小礼物奖赏这一年来的辛苦。

林佳慧，生日快乐！

WHY??

2009-03-18T23:49:00.003+08:00

why do such people exist??
they did not do anything, they did not put in effort.
All they did was to put down people's effort and claim credit.
i'd rather do all the work myself than to put up with you.
what makes you think you this bitch is correct?
all that you know is to party like an animal.
all that you know is to bark like a bitch.

FUCK YOU!

失去与拥有

2009-03-16T20:15:00.002+08:00

有一种拥有叫放手，放了爱。
有些东西一旦失去，就找不回。

Pool of Shit.

2009-03-07T02:42:00.003+08:00

I don't know is it because i'm useless or wat.
I just can't stop worrying.
I always jump into a pool of shit.
Is it really so hard to trust?

I wish I could stop everything now.
I wish I could turn back time.
I wish I shouldn't have started.

P/S: I don't know why I just can't seem to trust you. I am constantly worrying about all the things around you. You seemed so nonchalant about it. Is it really a one-sided thing?

Faith

2009-02-28T11:32:00.000+08:00

why do i find it so hard to believe again?

2009-01-04T02:34:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling shitty on the 4th day of 2009.
Is it a bad omen?

Resolution

2008-12-27T03:22:00.002+08:00

I've never set any resolutions in my past 23 years of life.
This year, i want to try setting them.
Not too many of them i guess, so i can achieve most of them.
I will not post them here.
I'll write them in my organiser. Wish me luck!!

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions...

2008-12-27T03:18:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, it is difficult to make the right decision.

I'm going to BKK in end August.

I just got news that MayDay is going to have to concert in Singapore on the 29th August.

Its a direct clash with the BKK dates.
Initially i wanted to give up BKK for them.
Then i realise sometimes, its ok to give the things you love a miss.
So the next time you see it, you'll cherish it more.

I have decided to give the concert a miss.
I know they will have a great concert.
I know i will die to be there.
However, this time i've decided to do something else.
I have trust in them that for their next concert, they will still do a fabulous job.

X'mas Wishlist

2008-12-06T03:29:00.005+08:00

I have an expensive list this year which I think I will not be able to receive any of them. LOL
Still, I will strive hard to achieve them as soon as possible. =)

BAGS!!

LV Monogram Neverfull GM
I've seen people carry the biggest of all 3, and it doesn't really look nice. However, the MM size is quite small for me, considering I'm always on the run.

LV Monogram Damier GM
I wanted to get this print. However, Dean's sister is getting this design so I don't want to have the same bag as her, although I really like this bag. (FYI, I don't really like her lar. Reasons enough to banish her to hell. Oh well.) Haha. The inner design is super nice! Red leh. Suit my bling bling diva image. LOL.

Burberry Nova Check Tote
I've always liked Burberry's print, but I don't really fancy the shape of the bag. But still, can consider. =D

Gucci New Brit Large Tote
This is the last of my choice lar. Its big! I have to include in. lol

GADGETS!!

Nokia E71
My Samsung ultra slim phone's LCD got kiap-ed by Siang's car door. Had been using my sis' ultra bulky and heavy phone. Been eye-ing this phone for quite some time. Especially the white one.

iPod Touch
Although my iPod video is still functioning well, I want to get an iPod Touch to play games. LOL. I think the iPhone doesn't really appeal to me, but games are nice. So in order to play the games, I need to get iPod Touch.

WATCHES!!

I haven't really found one, or rather, I din really go and see what's out there. But I'd really like a metal strap watch. I saw one that Debbie is wearing. Hers is from Agnes B. But I don't really have any brand preference. As long as its nice and suits me. By suiting me, I mean big clock face. LOL.

For better or for worse?

2008-11-14T02:26:00.003+08:00

I don't know is this for the better or for the worse. I have a feeling that nothing will change, yet I hope things will change. I am a scary person. I can clearly remember things that happened a long time ago, say 6 months to a year? And sometimes even further back. I think there are pros and cons. I will never forget happy moments that happened to me. However, I also remember the bad things that happened and I cannot forgive and forget. Actually, no one can forget; but they can forgive.

For me, I do not know have I forgave. The horrible things will keep tossing and turning in my pea brain. I need my stupid brain to do more meaningful jobs like memorising for exams, but it just wouldn't. Sometimes, it gets so bad that I can't sleep at night. Why can't we function like computers? Press shift + delete to permanently forget the bad things in life.

I am scary, because I really think I have split personality. Or rather, 2 brains; one depressed and one optimistic. When I'm happy, I can get real happy and the people around me will feel it too. But when I'm depressed, nothing can get me out of that dark hole. Instead, I will keep digging the hole deeper and deeper until all my emotions are released. After that stage, I will climb up the hole, taking a longer time that the previous time, and face the cold world again. Tell you one secret: whenever I'm in the hole, I feel like ending my life. That's real pessimistic. I don't know why I will behave this way, but I know I like to bottle things up inside me. That's unhealthy, but that's me. The real me.

Bad day..

2008-10-09T22:57:00.002+08:00

I had a really bad day today..
Everything's crushing down on me on this very day..
School, trip, r/s, money. Everything..
I need a break..

Consumer Behaviour

2008-09-01T23:49:00.002+08:00

Attended my first SMa lesson today.
And i really really really agree with the lecturer.

This incident happened today.

I was buying lunch with a colleague, and after buying the main course and so, we went to buy beverage. I ordered first and i didn't get a plastic bag, thinking i can stuff it into the bag together with the food. There are still some room left for another bottle. After she ordered hers, she wanted to get a bag. Then i told her no need, can put it together with the food, she insisted in getting the bag. After we walked away from the shop, she said why am i making such a big fuss over a bag.

Government and all are making all sorts of ways to make people use less plastic bags.

I told her it will do harm to our environment. She say don't care ah. Just take. Its just one plastic bag.

Every bag counts. Everyday, you'll think its one bag. Then in a year, you'll be wasting 365 bags. That's alot and maybe you're not the only one wasting the bag. And we walked past carrefour, i saw this ang moh lady buy a huge trolley of products and all the bags she used are those recycle-able bags, and all other Asians are taking plastic bags.

I know i'm not perfect. But i refrain from taking another plastic bag if i can squeeze everything in one bag.

And today, my lecturer told me, that the values in one person is the most difficult to change. They are being brought up in the family this way, their friends and relatives around them behave this way, that's why they, too, believe in all these values. So unless i change the surrounding of that person, then i can change that person's values.

I know its impossible to do that. But i'm glad that i tried to explain things to her. However, i am very sad that they actually don't listen and just insist on their way.

Do all teenagers behave this way too? Do they think the same way too?

Its not going to affect them so they don't do anything about it.

I am happy for myself that i am actually aware of this and am doing my small little part to save this mother earth.

I don't want to end up like the movie Wall-E.

Lets all stop wasting plastic bags, cut down on rubbish and save our only mother Earth. I don't believe that there's another better world out there.

Happy 4th Anniversary

2008-07-01T00:38:00.002+08:00

Here i am, alone typing this as he's happily sleeping behind.
This is how we always spend our special moment.

Trumpet

2008-06-25T19:19:00.003+08:00

Lun "dragged" me to his alumni band to help him out as his band doesn't have enough trumpet players. DNN VOLUNTEERED to go. Edmund agreed to help him out. So i'm the unwilling party here. Its like rape isn't it. LOL

Anyway, we, DNN and I, went for the first band prac last Saturday. We wanted to start off the day in a warm and nice way, we went to market to have you tiao and soya bean milk. After a hearty breakfast, we proceeded to take bus 59, as advised by SBS Transit Journey Planner and SG.ShowNearby website. Reached a ulu pandan place and walked for 5 min before DNN asked a resident living there for directions. We were told that Whitley Secondary School has moved to Bishan. -_-"

In the end, we had to take cab to Whitley at Bishan since we're running late. (We could have taken cab straight at the market after the breakfast lar. Stupid outdated website.) This is the 1st down part. Its already 9.30am when we reached there and upon entering the band room, we saw 3 people in the room. We were bloody "early" as compared to the rest. -_-" HOW CAN GUEST PLAYER COME EARLIER THAN MAIN PLAYERS???? 2nd down part.

Anyway, we just chose an instrument and started playing our own notes. The real prac only started around 10.15am. Halfway through, my lips are losing its stamina and the sides started to lao hong. Sianz. By the time we're done with the prac, my lips are totally swollen and numb. Luckily Lun made it up, not by kissing them, but treating us lunch!!! It'd be best if he can do that for every prac! LOL.

This sat i'm going to give the 10am to 5pm crazy prac a miss because i'm going to KL with KC and gang. Can't wait!! and on the 1st July is a special day! GST CREDIT DAY!! 4th YEAR ANNIVERSARY DAY!! And if i'm not wrong, its the temp job pay day!! LOL.

My LOVE is strong, for him.

2008-06-23T21:33:00.003+08:00

I did not realize that I love him this much until recently, a series of event happened and I really felt how strong my love was for him.

Told a couple of my friends about this ordeal that I'm going through and all of them were on my side, and some were amazed how can I let this happen. However, my love for him was strong enough to overcome.

Till now, I still believe that I have chosen the one that I love more. But loving someone can be so difficult. The more I try to please him, the more we'll end up picking at each other's fault, pinpointing and blaming one another. I keep asking myself will he be the right one? What will our future be like? Will we still fight every other day for the rest of the days? So many uncertainties.

Till now, my heart is still yearning for him even though I've cried countless times for him and going mad at him for a zillion times. I am also surprised that I can forgive and forget so many things and move on. But how long can one forgive and forget? Will the hatred grow within me unknowingly? Will I burst the fury bubble in me a few years later?

As of now, I know that the place in my heart belongs to him and him only. Although I have met a few good men, but no one can replace him in my heart as of now. I speak for now, but not for future. I am fearing the day that I don't love him anymore. How will i spend my weekends without him? For better or for worst? And how will he spend his free time and with whom? But will this day come?

All I know is I am loving him all I can, with no regrets. Like what I've said, he's the one who made me know what is love and how to love someone.

Thank you, and I love you.

Phuket Trip (Updated)

2008-05-31T23:11:00.004+08:00

This is my first visit to Phuket, somewhere beach-y.

I only started packing one the night before departure. Imagine how rushed i feel.

I shall let pictures do the talking.

They all say i'm really dressed for the beach vacation. Well... Diva mah.

Ah chek and "Tony".

I din know T1 has such a nice area near the boarding gates.

First time on board a budget airline. Leg space - a little cramp.

Windows - a little small.

Excited me~

Pretty me. *blush*

The quite pretty Thai girl. But she has that "smelly" face the whole trip.

Reached Phuket.

Taking a minibus to our hotel. Long journey.

Our hotel. Quite reasonable, except that the roof will have leaks when it is pouring all night. And its just beside my bed. Phew.

Corridor.

Went walking along Patong beach in search of cheap and good seafood.

Settled down at some local stalls..

Swamped by countless flies.

Had a stroll along the beautiful beach and of course not missing out the chance to take pretty pictures.

Look at how fine the sand are.

Wrote something funny to show i was there.

Joe wrote something sweet too. Honeymoon period. LOL

Saw something funny. Am i correct to say that they actually encourage people to drive fast, but carefully.

Had a massage before partying all night.

Saw alien an predator fighting on the streets.

Passed by this shopping centre and took some pictures while waiting for pee-ing people.

Reached the nightlife area. Tonnes of people showing "Tiger Show!" "Take picture?"

Finally found one place thats not so sleazy and comfortable.

Guys got hungry so we went round round before choosing this restaurant, Pizza Company. Quite nice and cheap!

Saw this sign on the way back to hotel. Do they have high grounds?

Bargained for a cheap tuk-tuk.

Reached hotel and prepared Ah Chek's birthday ice-cream. Cannot find cakes. LOL.

Start of2nd day, island hopping day.

Maya beach?

Thousand hand buddha.

Clear water.

Tried on our snorkeling gears.

Tired~~

Monkey beach. Obvious?

A series of love photos.

AWWW~~~~

Long awaited lunch.

Finally, Phi Phi Island.

Dinner!!

Lobster bisque.

Live band.

Massage time.

After last massage, its hotel sweet hotel. The very next morning, home sweet home.

I'm a GENIUS

2008-05-29T21:03:00.001+08:00

iPod

2008-05-20T20:41:00.002+08:00

iPod is a girl's bestfriend.
I was walking home from the station and plugged in my iPod.
And the songs that accompanied home were all so suitable for my mood.

From 五月天 - 志明與春嬌, to 梁靜茹 - 會呼吸的痛, to 張惠妹 - 排山倒海

I want to dedicate this song to DNN.

Is it just me??

2008-05-19T01:09:00.003+08:00

I'm not being the usual me these few days.
I think i lost faith.
In myself.
In my work.
In my life.
In my love.

The china disaster was a heartache to most out there.
No matter how much money i can contribute, its not enough.
What those victims need are life.
These, we cannot give.
However, if we have a choice of donating our own life, i would gladly do so.

I'm leading an aimless life.
My siblings can take care of my parents.
I have no dog.
DNN has his family and he can always find someone to walk with him for the rest of his life.
My friends has all other friends to keep them company.
I feel dispensable in this world.
As the saying goes, nothing is indispensable.

I would love to donate my life to someone who can do better than me.
Live their life to the fullest.
Love someone and be loved.

I believe alot of people out there can do a better job than me, but they just don't have the life.
I want to be the first to donate life, if i can.

Old enough...

2008-04-05T15:32:00.002+08:00

One just keeps getting older each year..
Today, i'm one of the few thousand in the world?? Not forgetting siang too.. He's the only one i know that celebrates today.

Yesterday met Baoz to have xiao long bao, today meeting Sukuz for dinner, tomorrow having dim sum with family... great way to spend my old-ing day.. lol..

Hope the days that follows after today will be fruitful, meaningful, great and healthy!!

FYI, i just went to tui na my back coz i think my back's giving me alot of prob one month ago after spraining it. And the aftermath is blisters... damn... how unlucky can i get... so sian... those who get to meet up with me can see how bad they are. i shall end here and wish DNN's bed will be here soon. if not, we'll be late.............

A Good Deed

2008-03-09T11:57:00.002+08:00

I picked up a wallet on Friday in the MRT. Went to Toa Payoh control station to put it in the care of the personnel there.

Received a call yesterday. He called to thank me for returning his wallet to him, and would like to give me 2 invitation to the museum. A very unique way of thanking people. However, i rejected his offer.

I "ji le yi dian ying de".

All excited

2008-02-16T22:39:00.002+08:00

I keep wanting to hold it, use it, admire it and show it off. But i withheld. I'm more afraid i will lose it. What am i talking about? See it for yourself.

I'm so obssessed with it. I've been contemplating to get a digital camera since..... last year? I finally made the move. And i bought it off at a heartbreaking price of.. S$721 (S$649 + S$72 extend warranty). This is the most expensive gadget i've bought using my own hard earned money. And since i am not going to be the only one using, i "forced" my sis to share half the cost. So now it does not pain my heart so much as compare to the time i paid for it. Still, its quite a sum of money. Hopefully it doesn't fail me. And i must make it a point to keep on snapping photos everytime i go out now, to make the most of it.

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT!!

So the next time you see me snapping pics like there's not tomorrow, please forgive me. Oh, and i bought this instead of T70 is because of the 5X optical zoom. I want to use it to film MAYDAY!!

I'm going to their concert again on 24th April and i got tickets for the premium block!!! so excited~~ i really really can't wait for April to zoom here.

解脱

2008-01-17T22:35:00.000+08:00

一个人，要懂得何时放手，才能让自己在这困境中解脱。
一个人，要懂得如何忘记，才能让未来的回忆更美好。
你是我们最要好，最坚强的一个人。

解脱
爱是不夜城
回忆像星辰
热泪越沸腾
我越感觉有点冷
变了心的人
越想越伤人
枯坐到清晨
阳光替房间开了灯
想
若结局一样
又何苦再想
伤
若让人成长
我为什么怕分手的伤
解脱
是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走
我有自由好好过
解脱
是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔
我总会实现一个梦

Year 2008

2008-01-01T13:27:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year!

Decided to blog after procrastinating for so long.
Did alot of things in December to end my 2007 in a very good way.

- Department dinner, took alot of crazy photo with GM
- D & D, had a good time screaming for vouchers, and won a small lucky draw prize
- Batam trip and Malaysia road trip with Bih, Gong and DNN

The trip was very last min and was glad we went together with Bih and Gong and E-dwin. As you know, one need to know malay in M'sia and Batam, and Gong happens to be our translator, bargain-er, and negotiator. We don't have to worry about language for this whole trip. However, we got "chopped" the moment we stepped out of the ferry terminal in batam. More of that when i get all the pictures from Bih say a few months later??? haha.

However, i got the department dinner photos with me, so i shall blog more about that.

Department Dinner
It was held at Plaza Park Royal Hotel located along Beach Road. Dishes was so-so, but the photo-taking was crazy. All of us were super daring that day and requested our GM and VP to take crazy pictures with us.

Debbie..

Four of us

Table people and VP

GM

Japanese Style

Debbie and GM

Indra

So cute~~

Here comes the chance for us to grab our GM and take a huge load of photo with him..

Crazy me..

They're worse.

Happy family

Right. i shall end here coz i need to prepare for shopping in town!! crazy me.. Happy new year once again and i shall blog soon about the D&D then the road trip.

.....

2007-10-28T01:34:00.000+08:00

Busy, lazy, tired, occupied are the excuses i came up for not blogging.. oh well.. WHATEVER~

Watched a couple of nice, in fact, great movies!
- Sicko
- Lars and The Real Girl (a few hours ago)
- i forgot..

Anyway, most great shows do not spend alot of money advertising, so people tend to miss them. I got to know them through newspaper ratings of movies, or through Leh-nis, who's so free that he's constantly searching for good movies, good food and good soccer to bet on. So if you don't have people like him around you, you'll tend to miss out alot.

For more reviews on those great movies, you can refer to Leh-nis' blog. He's still actively updating his blog, unlike me.

Since i'm already here, might as well wish 2 people happy birthday .
AI DE WING and Darryl Tan, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

One is 23 YO, another is 11 YO. What a gap!

Shall go sleep now. LAZY!!

p/s: looking for sweaters now. such a tedious task. tsk tsk..

Worst Feeling of The Year..

2007-09-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

It feels so sad and hurting when i see them fight. They have never done it in my face before, but i heard that they did it a long long time ago when i was still very young.

I know they both have their reason, but i think both of them are too hot-headed at that point of time to talk things in a reasonable way. Not sure have they made up before he left for China, but i know their anger will not last, for they have been through thick and thin. =)

I was asked to accompany her last night. I did it in hope that she will feel better and not be too bothered by it, and i'm glad i helped in one way or another. Many will not understand how i feel, but i certainly don't wish for the worse.

To end it off, i'm starting to feel the stress at work, with different kind of colleagues, workload and management. I know i can handle it, but i think i need more time. Wanted to stay back and finish up my work, but it seems like i have things going on every night so i have no choice but to leave my work unfinished. Plus, i had a bad day.. *shrugs* Who can understand me??

Dusty...

2007-09-04T20:26:00.000+08:00

Its getting rusty and dusty here..

I shall close my blog sooner or later..

Anyway, here's a few major updates.

1) Tennis Lesson
I attended my very first tennis lesson yesterday. It was overall a fruitful lesson. Roughly know how to use racquet and i hit quite a number of balls. Unlike PY, she clocked a total of $10.50 wasted balls. (Private joke) XB din manage to join us coz she was having some prob at work. Hopefully she can pick up fast enough so she wun feel so out. But anyway, PY isn't any better either. LOL! =X

2) Future
Decided to continue studies next year, after the end of my current contract. More or less know what i want to study and where. But i hope to find a place that can end faster and cost lower than the one that i've decided.

3) Blunders
Made quite a few mistakes at work, some major, some minor. Was so shocked that senior and manager din scold me. They just asked, find out the cause, think of solution, and told me what went wrong. A totally different culture from that ex-workplace.

4) Rainbow tendered!! We shall have an ex-company gathering soon.

I think that's all lar. Can't really remember others. Am too lazy to blog le. I want to fully utilise my off work hours to rest, watch tv, rest, sleep. haha. call me pig, but i enjoy my rest time. Right. I think the next time i blog should be the time i complete my tennis course. LOL. Next Sharapova to be.

P/S: Ask for my signture in advance before i become a star. If not, no guarantees that i will sign for you. ;)

Long Long Ago...

2007-08-04T00:12:00.000+08:00

Missing me?
I don't think so.

Anyway, back to update my one month worth of work. I took over all the work load from my mentor, she's leaving next Wednesday. My confidence level is around 70%. The rest of the 30% i still need to really familiarize with the procedure. But all in all, time definitely pass faster with endless work load, constant walking around the office and chatty colleagues. Hopefully i can slim down by walking alot. LOL.

Another colleague is leaving the company and i have been assigned one of her customer's account. I don't think i have time for another customer, but they are planning to hire 3 more contract staff so hopefully i don't have to do that for long.

On a side note, my current manager has resigned and will end his work officially at the end of September. My previous manager, Rainbow, also told Rambutans that she will most probably not stay beyond December, which is a good thing. Its time for good people to leave the lousy company and soar to greater heights.

Leh-nis started work this week too. At last he's leading a normal life now.

On a more personal note, i'm tempted, really tempted to buy Mayday's concert DVD lar. And that Lin Pei Yan say she want to buy Milo Peng's album until now no news.

Oh! On a healthier note, i signed up a tennis course with Xiao B, Pei Yan and Leh-nis! Course commence on September!! I can be the next Sharapova!!

I need my sleep now. Stomachache for the whole day plus swollen wisdom gum. HOW GREAT?? -_-"

Yawn~

2007-07-21T01:54:00.000+08:00

Work is manageable so far. That is because i only took on air shipments. Starting sea shipments next week. Time is passing considerably faster than in RBT company.

Heard that my successor is not doing exactly very good. Well, not everyone can replace me, i must say. WAHAHA. Been spending too much lately, all because of SALE! bought a top and a pair of shorts from Dorothy Perkins (DP). Their sale is irresistable, but not alot of sizes left. Going to Topshop and Miss Selfridge later. Need to get a dress for upcoming wedding, and of course for my dying wardrobe. Tried one at DP but its more towards casual style, can't wear it for dinner. Costs 40 bucks before 10% discount. Am seriously tempted. *slurp slurp*

Hope i can find a nicer and more appropriate dress later.

Celebrating Edmund's ABSOLUTELY belated birthday tonight. And not forgetting it's Lj and PIGGY Janet's "SPECIAL" birthday today! Joelly's birthday was 07/07/07, today is 20/07/2007. Should be celebrating for that pig next week and not so sure about Lj. Lol. Must wait till he gets me my desired bright red or leopard print bra from Thailand. hurhurhur.

I seriously don't know wat to blog because i'm doing the same thing everyday. Oh, except that i signed up for a one-time special price facial. lalala~ Feeling very poor yet buying so many things. tsk tsk tsk. And Leh-nis wanted to buy the Optimus Prime talking head/mask which costs 60 bucks. Waste of money. *sigh*

BYE

Harry Potter

2007-07-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

Watched Harry Potter last night with Alan, Joelly and Leh-nis. Can say I'm as usual, disappointed. Things are so different from the book.

Spoilers ahead!

1) When the members of the Order are there to pick Harry, they should introduce themselves. If not, throughout the show, you will not know who is who.
2) Harry is supposed to get angry at Hermione and Ron for a few times and he is really shouting instead of just speaking loudly.
3) Ron and Hermione are supposed to be prefects for Gryffindor, and Malfoy for Slytherin.
4) Harry is supposed to for Umbridge's detention for more than once.
5) The name list for DA should be bewitched so anyone who says out the secret meeting will have blisters all over the face.
6) Harry and Cho should go out for a date on Valentine's Day and she is supposed to get angry and jealous at Harry for wanting to meet Hermione on that special day.
7) Hermione is supposed to hook up a meeting for Harry and Rita Skeeter (ex-Daily Prophet reporter) and write a true story on how Cedric died and how Voldemort came back to power and published on Luna Lovegood's father's magazine, Quibbler.
8) The one who betrayed DA should be Cho's friend, not Cho.
9) Department of Mysteries should not be so easily available. They will go in a door, and reach a maze-like situation whereby the doors will rotate in a circle and they have to go through a few doors before they reach the prophecy room.
10) Prophecy glass should be broken before it will say out the prophecy. And at the end of the duelling, the glass should be broken by Neville and no one heard the prophecy.
11) Duelling should not be just invisible spells flying around but they should say out the spells. Ron should go crazy laughing, Ginny should break her ankle, Hermione should pass out, Neville should have rubbery legs that can't stand on his own, Luna should be heavily injured.
12) Harry should throw tantrum and be extremely rude to Dumbledore, demanding for a lot of explanations.

The list will go on and on. Now, i can't wait for the last book to come out. 5 more minutes and I'm into the second week of my new job. So far, i can say that I'm handling quite OK, but as the workload becomes heavier, i can't say that for myself. Happy week ahead.

New Work, Limited Access

2007-07-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

So long never blog, lost touch with the world outside le. Tonnes of things to update but I'm too lazy and I really can't recall a lot of things. So for more details on my Malacca trip and National Stadium closing ceremony, refer to Dennis, Alan or Joelly's blog.

As for work, today's my second day. So far, so good. One bad thing, no internet access. Not sure will I have them in the near future or never. To make it up, I had my email set up today. Now I can communicate with my friends using email and not have to secretly msn. So guys, to find me, you can email me at jiahui[at]toyota-asia[dot]com. But only valid for one year. Lol. After that I wouldn't be around to check your emails. Another good thing is that I get to lunch with Miss Chiou almost EVERYDAY!! Can you believe it? Haha. I think this overrules everything lar. I had lunch alone yesterday at long john and its so sad lar. Today I had lunch with Miss Chiou, the feeling is so good lar. At least some one to chat with me after keeping my mouth shut for the whole morning. Oh, just for your info, I'm sitting right at the end, so there's only one colleague on my left, permanent staff, another colleague opposite me, and my GM behind me *roll eyes*. But I'm not exactly very "shou" with them so I shall not disturb them.

Another thing to look forward to, I'm watching Harry Potter this Saturday. I CAN'T WAIT LAR!! But I know I'll be disappointed after the movie because they are so gonna cut a hell load of information. But heck! Lol.

Note to Joelly: forgot to tell you that the strap can be adjusted at any Casio shop and bring
along the warranty card to adjust it for free!

So yes, without internet access, you are going to see less of me blog, reply email or msn. So miss me, and I know you will. ;)

Of KL Trip and Stupid Boss

2007-06-22T11:24:00.000+08:00

Let me update you on my mundane KL trip.

Day 1
The journey there was alright. We got delayed a lil and there was some check-in problem at the hotel. But everything was settled by 5pm and we were happily resting in our room. Dill-dallied a while and went to Lot 10 for dinner and a lil shopping. Quarrelled just before we left the room. After dinnering, we split up into groups and went shopping on our own. Wanted to cross the street and shop at the apparently huge Giordano there, but we had disagreement, and we split up and went our own ways. Rejoined the big group later and walked back to hotel. Wasted quite alot of time in the room before going out for supper and walked to Sungei Wang Plaza to check out the KTV price. Not as cheap as what i expected, walked back to hotel.

Day 2
Went Sunway Lagoon early the morning, even before the ticket sales start. Managed to chiong in once admission started and went to put our bags in a safe place and venture to the theme park first. Nothing really fun, maybe except for the 360 Viking that we did not play. Should have sat that ride. *Regret* The weather became too hot to bear, and he was dying to go and play at the water park. Changed and off we go to cool ourselves. Park is big, nothing really nice to play. Particularly liked the Lazy River thing. The water is cold, and i can just sit there, do nothing and get tanned at the same time. Took a few tube rides and off we go. Washed up, changed and went shopping at Sunway Pyramid. By then, my leg was aching like hell after playing so much tube rides. Settled for Dunkin' Donuts first then went to explore that place. He wanted to rest, while i wanted to shop. Luckily, he managed to get his family to play bowling with him, while i go shopping on my own. Got 2 pair for shoes for myself and a top for my sis. Rejoined the whole group and bought more donuts before heading back to the hotel.

Day 3
Quarrelled before breakfast. Walked to KLCC in mid-morning and we walked like 15-20 minutes. Tiring, hot, sweaty. Nothing to do over there, so watched Fantastic 4. After movie, realised we still have time and he went to cut his hair, i did french manicure. Waste of money. Should have bought more stuff with the money. Met up with the big group, walked back hotel, again. Collapsed on the bed once i reach the hotel room. Rested a while, and we went out for dinner. Seafood dinner with his parents and bought some local products and went foot reflexology. Another waste of money activity. Could have bought a few more things with that money. Went back room, bathed, changed and went to KTV, 12am - 4am. I got killed half way through and slept all the way till 4am with all the noise in the room. Walked back hotel in the rain, how good. Slid under the covers and off i go to dreamland.

Day 4
Walked around BB Plaza for time to pass, disagreement, and headed back to hotel at 12.30pm. Last minute packing and checked out hotel at 1pm. Went for a nearby lunch, last minute local product shopping and went back hotel collect our bags, and took a chartered van to the coach place. Wait and wait and wait, quarrel again, and after i got on the bus shortly, it poured. Lucky me. Bus started moving and not soon after, the sky turned dark. Coach did not stop at any food place for us to grab dinner, and was so hungry halfway through the journey. Reached custom, and cabbed back to his house coz it was quite late at night. Ordered pizza delivery coz we're simply too tired to go home, then out to buy dinner.

Conclusion of the trip? A so-so one, but not alot of results. Meaning, result of my shopping. Only managed to get shoes. I shall start saving big, go KL with real hard shoppers the next time round and i make sure i shop till i drop!

Work
I'm so reluctant to come back to work after the trip. One main reason is that i know the idiot boss is back to work. Wanted to blog out what happened yesterday evening, but i realised its not worth it. Shall just end on a sad note after that happened around me.

Is (boy-girl) love really a necessity? Some find it sweet, some find it hurting. Who's right and who's wrong?

MayDay + KL

2007-06-13T00:05:00.000+08:00

Too lazy to update nowadays.
Not even MayDay can motivate me to blog. lol.

MayDay Concert
Went to MayDay with Leng, Nian, Li, Yao and Dean. First time so many people, we even had to separate into 2 rows. lol. Saw Alan, Joelly and Kinda at Expo station, and i know for sure Wendy will be there. Oh and Peiyan went with her friend. I believe most of them enjoyed themselves, especially me. The 3 sitting infront kept complaining that i'm singing too loud. I paid to enjoy myself mah, who cares! lol. This year, we had to stand on the chair because those sitting infront of us started the inconsiderate behaviour and in order not to lugi after paying so much munneh, we followed suit. hurhurhur. And i can't believe i'm so near the stage that when they came over to our side and performed infront of us, i'm screaming like hell lar. I'm so in love with them lar. I've made a pact with Peiyan that we are going to queue up next year and grab the VIP seats. I DON'T CARE!!

Anyway, after losing so much energy at the concert, we went to AMK to supper, then Leng's Yao sent us him. Thanks load.

KL
Well, now i'm just waiting for time to pass and a few hours later, I'm off to take the coach. I'm so gonna buy Dunkin Donuts from KL lar. I tried ordering online in SG, but they totally fail the service mark. I ordered to collect on 6 June 3.15pm. I walked all the way from my office to Raffles City. As i was early, i walked around and when the time is nearing, i proceeded to wait at the meeting place. 5-10 min passed. No one's here distributing donuts, no calls. Around 3.30pm, i received a SMS, saying something like "We have to cancel today's donut collection due to legal reason. Our license for mass delivery of donuts only starts on the 10 of June. Sorry." That's all. They din bother to call, din bother to tell us what happened to our order. Thoroughly disappointed. Anyway, i'm going to enjoy myself!! =)

Updates

2007-05-24T14:11:00.000+08:00

Dead Beat Tired
Watched Pirates 2 half-heartedly.

1) Too late - 11pm to 2am
2) Too tired
3) Too draggy

But i guess it should be enough for me to understand and watch Pirates this Friday.

Nintendo DS Lite
Leh-nis bought a PINK DS Lite for me birthday present. Resulting in a very very empty pocket now. Not very sure how is he going to KL and enjoy himself.

Anyway, DS Lite is pretty fun, but i can't find time to play. It's now sitting in his house and sometimes i can't help wondering did he buy the DS Lite more for himself or me. Well, it's the thought that counts. *shrugs*

I planned my finances next month and damn!! I can't go shopping for the whole of next month. That's like a torture and punishment to me lar. Plus its the GSS season. HOW CAN DON'T SHOP? humph.

Job Hunting
Back to the vicious cycle of job hunting.

Flip newspaper -> send resume -> flip newspaper -> send resume -> go interview -> continue send resume

So boring right?? But what to do, i need to feed myself and curb my shopping cravings. BOO.

Dog Lover
Once a dog lover, always a dog lover. I'm itching to get myself a dog again. However, i know i cant afford the time to take care. I don't want history to repeat itself. I can only get a dog under 2 circumstances.

1) Single
2) Married

Only then i can afford to have the time to take care and love the dog.

Freedom~~
Boss is going overseas again. Although this time round the duration is slightly shorter, nevertheless, i shall enjoy to the fullest! Watch korean drama, play games, MSN openly.. HO HO HO!! and i'm going away to KL for.. Half a week? Itinery not confirmed yet. Can't wait for June to come!

Harry Potter!!

2007-05-17T16:56:00.000+08:00

I'm not a crazy fan of Harry Potter, but i have read all books and watched all movies of Harry Potter. Recently, i saw this on the Internet and decided to get one to try.

Harry Potter Bertie Bott's Every Flavor Bean!!

It has got tonnes of absurd flavours in it. Like:

Earwax
Rotten Egg
Black Pepper
Earthworm
Bacon
Dirt
Soap
Grass
Vomit
Booger
Blueberry
Buttered Popcorn
Cherry
Grape Jelly
Cinnamon
Green Apple
Toasted Marshmallow
Lemon Drop
Tutti-Frutti

So excited but i don't dare to try. lol.

I'm so happy!!

Finally!!

2007-05-14T09:52:00.000+08:00

Damn you Blogger!! I can't blog for a good whole week.. DAMN YOU!!! i even considered changing my blog you idiot!!

Anyway, my post from last week..

Speedy Recovery!!
My dearest Ah Ma slipped and fell yesterday morning. She was sent to SGH and warded last night at 7pm. They waited for a good 5 hours or so just to get warded. She will be having an operation either today or tomorrow to fix her leg. This is the second time she fell, and the third time she's warded in a hospital. She will need to have another surgery in June because of her knee cap.

My Ah Ma is such a nice and kind lady. She doesn't deserve all these. When i visited her last night, she was still smiling and relating how it all happened. But when the nurses came and helped her change into hospital clothing, even the slightest movement will hurt her so much that she "ouched" a few times. But when we are around, she will pretend that its not hurting and she will tell us not to visit her tomorrow, and chasing us home when we've just reached. I think she doesn't want us to worry about her. But how can we not? She's only one and only dearest Ah Ma!!

Ah Ma, we all want you to recover fast and get out of that stupid place! We will always love you!! =)

KL Trip
Date: 13th June to ?? June
Time: 9am at Novena
Location: KL
With: Leh-nis, Leh-nis parents, Leh-nis bro, Leh-nis relatives
Purpose: Eat Eat Eat shop Eat Eat Eat work Eat Eat Eat sleep

Last Day
And due to the fact that I'm going to KL within my 2 months notice period, i need to work back 3 more days here. So my last day would be changed to 4th July. =(
And by changing my last day's date, i would need to change my A'Famosa date to 6th July? Since Joelly can't make it on the 5th. And hopefully i can start a job after my trip. ARGH~ I'm so lazy to look for jobs but I'm so keen to leave this bloody company.

And here comes the update for last few days.

Dearest Ah Ma
She went for operation on Friday. I visited her on that very evening. She was in great pain, but again, she hid it from us. She grabbed my hand once me and my sis reach there. She was paranoid about her leg, her operation, the doctor that operated on her. But we kept reassuring her that its going to be alright and things like that. I dragged Leh-nis to visit my Ah Ma today. =) Hope she feels better.

Mother's Day
I did not spend it at home. Our family celebrated last week. I worked this weekend so after i knock off at 3, i was contemplating to go hospital. But Leh-nis had a BBQ session at his aunt's place so i bargained with him and I'll go to his celebration, he'll visit my Ah Ma with me tonight. =) Give and take, give and take!!

Last Day
My last day is back to 1st July, 29 June, again because i worked last weekend!! and I've got 2 days of outstanding leave. So now, I've got a total of 3 days leave now. Just nice for my KL trip.

A'Famosa Trip
I've booked the trip to A'Famosa last Saturday too. Departing 3rd July, arriving back at Singapore on 5th July. So after that, its serious work again. Hopefully i can find a job that allows me to start work once i finish with all my trips.

Finally finished updating what i wanted to say. Hopefully stupid Blogger can fix all the bugs lar. Idiot.

Free

2007-05-06T17:54:00.000+08:00

I'm a free bird.

Official date of leaving - 1st July

But 1st July falls on a Sunday, therefore my last day shall be 29 June. I will definitely go out and party that very lucky day. =)

Oh.. Rainbow got quite a few opportunities these few days. think she might be able to make it. then not long after, i need to really plunge my head into job searching. and dammit lar.. now i'm interested in study Hotel Management. However, i will observe the job market and decide which field shall be my next target.

As for now, i'm going out for Mother's Day celebration. Seafood and other sinful food. Promised myself this shall be the only time this month. For the rest of the days, i will stick to my newly created diet and lifestyle. woohoo~~

Utterly Lazy..

2007-04-24T12:34:00.000+08:00

Yes.. i hear you..
Yes.. i admit.. i'm lazy..

Resignation
Alrighty.. I've officially told boss that i'm leaving this company. Notice Period - 2 months. Official date of leaving - unknown. Well, she wants me to stay till July because she will only be back from her long trip in mid-June. Yang Niu manager leaving in mid-May, another manager planning to leave once she gets a job offer, i'm definitely leaving in July. Plus, we've just got a new girl working here last week. If she cant last, that's to say the company almost like new lar. Totally new staff.

On another note, i'm not exactly sure which field to go into. I'm keen to try shipping or logistic area. Seems fun. But most of the job advertisement says they prefer those that has got at least 2 years experience. If worse come to worse, i can always start off in a VERY VERY junior post and work my way up, but my pay will be very miserable lar. haiz. HOW??

Movies
Watched tonnes of movies. Some nice, some not so nice. Some cheem, some not so cheem. But all that i know is that Spidey 3 is coming out real soon.

Concert
I think i did not mention, but those that has got my MSN should know that i'm going to Mayday's concert again. Well, this time round, we got the tickets really really late and i'm not exactly happy with the seat. But Liu Jialing took the initiative to ask so, might as well go and just feel the atmosphere. Nian's going so still ok lar. New company, different feel. Oh, Leh-nis and Lau Kah Leng's MY boi boi also going. Wonder will it be awkward lar. HECK~~ lol. As long as i enjoy myself. Lalalala~~

Blank
I don't know what to blog about. So... Continue to miss me.

I Love Auntie!!

2007-04-16T14:42:00.000+08:00

I'm having a tummy-ache as i'm typing this.

Anyway, the cleaning auntie working for my company is so cute!! haha.. She's forever so kind-hearted. Last time when I asked her is it convenient for her to buy fresh flowers for our company every 2 weeks. She said she'll have to check the Sheng Siong at her place, are they selling nice flowers. So in short, she did not give her promise that she'll buy.

So today, Lao Ban bought an ugly bouquet of orchids, and auntie also bought orchids for us.When she saw that we already had flowers, she was so good that she was willing to give us for free. But Rainbow and I insisted that we pay her the money.

She's always smiling and joking with me lar. And If I ever open a cleaning services company, I'll surely poach her over. Lol.

*****

I'm so sick these few days.

Sore throat.
Slowly developed into cough.
Slowly got phlegm.
Then block nose came along.
Lastly, a little bitsy of runny nose.

I'm so gonna die lar. However, my situation took a turn for the better. Throat no longer hurt that much. Cough is still pestering me. Phlegm is fading away. Block nose is here to stay. Only experience runny nose in the earlier part of the day.

I've been drinking alot of Luo Han Guo these few days. I shall brew more barley to bring to work.

***

I think i'll be tendering by mid of this week. Can't delay any longer. Wish me luck!
BTW, anyone got any job lobang, don't forget me. I'm hardworking, fast-learner, patient, high-tolerance. Salary - AHAP (As high as possible)

***

Leh-nis got himself a new phone. Now i'm itching to get mine too. I shall call Starhub and enquire if i can extend my line earlier. LALALA~~

***

Have decided not to study le lar. So difficult to wait for the Unis to accept. I shall earn money. Earn all the way!!

落泪

2007-04-11T12:59:00.000+08:00

昨天过的不是很好。但始终已是过去事了。一大清早就被骂到狗血淋头，六亲不认。还甚至害彩虹被骂。可能我真的不适合做那些零零碎碎的事。经常应为疏忽而遭到挨骂。我应该快点找份自己喜欢的工作，不要再继续留在这里让别人跟我一起受苦。

最近我都很想家。可能是因为我很久没回家了。大概四天吧。昨晚我真得太伤心，太想家，所以忍不住就在丹尼斯加落下了几滴泪。我爱我的家！！但还好过一阵子就觉得好多了。丹尼斯也很逗趣的做了些很笨的动作，逗到我哈哈大笑。

好吧，我就努力的找份我喜欢的工作吧。请大家为我加油吧！！

Happy Birthday to Me..

2007-04-05T00:28:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Me,
Happy Birthday to Me,
Happy Birthday to Toot Toot,
Happy Birthday to Me!!

Yay.. Its officially my birthday now. Lehnis say he wants to countdown for me. And he's fast asleep since 11.30pm. How nice.

Anyway, cant get to sleep, so might as well blog down this significant day.

Really really wish i can know what i want to do in my life so i wouldn't have to feel so troubled. I hope i can accomplish something big in this life. Hope i can have a smooth sailing life, family and friends around me can be happy and healthy. Nothing much but its all important.

Once again, 生日快乐！！

Teacher?? Student??

2007-04-04T17:15:00.000+08:00

I clicked on a link that brought me to the NIE page..

I suddenly have a vision of me teaching primary school Ginna-s Mathematics..

Maybe.. i can give it a try??

Or maybe not.. I believe i will be on the front page of straits times on the first day of work..

*Slap*
Me: "Why never do your homework?"
~Student starts to cry~

*Slap Slap*
Me: "Never do work still want to cry!!"
~Student continue crying~

*Slap Slap Slap*
Me: "You want to cry you go outside, stand there and cry for everyone to see. Let everyone know you did not do your homework"
*Throw his/her exercise book out of the door and walk away*

I can be a Stylo Milo Teacher.. Woo~~

Birthday Nearing..

2007-04-02T12:04:00.000+08:00

Birthday Nearing...
I forgot whom did i mention this to, but i've already decided le. I shall just hope for the best an if i don't get accepted, i will just continue to work and stop trying the local U. I may just keep on working until i know what i want in life then i can pursue from then onwards. And what zilch has tagged is absolutely right. I shall just stay positive. =)

On a sad note, i cut my hair again. I realised that once you've cut your hair real short, you don't really have the patience to let it grow long. Every now and then, you'll feel that your hair is long and you really want to cut. So i really cut it and i totally regret it lar. Its utterly short and toot now. And i think Janet will have a hell lot of fun laughing at me this Friday. oh WHATEVER. I shall just hope it grows faster and i can just cut another style soon.
My birthday is coming and i'm really.. not that excited. Who wants to grow old?? Wrinkles start to form, complexion starts to deteriorate. So terrifying. But anyway, i made an effort this year to treat my family to a sumptuous dinner.

Its a season to be jolly~
Fwah lalalalala~ lalalala~

I don't have enough days in a week to meet up with my friends. I'm so popular.. hohoho~

Boring

2007-03-22T10:40:00.000+08:00

Boring...
Everything's so boring. I always cant wait for weekends to come. I have no goals in life now. I dread coming to work each day. That's why for the past 3 days, i kept waking up late. damn.

Uni Life...
Edwin keeps on psycho-ing me to go SMU. Par keeps on telling me that i cannot survive in NUS. I don't want to go NTU because they do not have the course that i want to take. I'm not trying SIM until i accept the fact that all the 3 well-known Uni in Singapore refuses to accept me again. I keep having the feeling that i wouldn't get accepted again. Edwin and Peiyan keeps on telling me they will accept me. Life is full of contradictions. I don't want to work, but i want to have a steady income. I don't want to study but i want to have a good job. I know good job does not come with good qualifications. But, i don't know what i want to do yet. Or rather, i know what i want to be, but i just can't be. I want to be.. a TAI TAI!! See? Its impossible right? Maybe when i grow older i might have a better chance. But till then, i need to know what i want to do.

R.F.I.D...
I'm going to die just by reading the slides. I'm currently doing a "project" for RBT2. He's conducting a masterclass and i'm part of the group to help him develop content and do up the slides. I'm more interested in doing the slides rather than drawing up the contents. Speaking of that, i need to go and continue reading the slides.
P/S: Maybe i'm not suitable for Uni. I can fall asleep just by reading the slides. grr.

Wishlist

2007-03-12T12:04:00.000+08:00

Wishlist...
Time to update my wishlist since my birthday is coming.. mwahwahwa.. remember to start saving up and buy me gift.. WAHAHA..

*Updated!*

Movie...
I WANT TO WATCH HISTORY BOYS LAR.. as an O'Level history student, i'm interested in that movie lar.. i know how "deadly" history can be.. Watched 300 and Music and Lyrics.. So far, both are good.. especially 300.. i extremely love war movies.. so exciting can!! you don't know what formation they will use lor.. so dramatic yet interesting.. lol..

Note: girls don't always love sappy love stories.. New-age girls like me heart epic war movies. wahaha..

Payday...
Still so long to payday.. and i can foresee my pay decreasing steadily as days go by.. Those who still owe me money, do me a favour and return me?? humph..

Random

2007-03-07T16:58:00.000+08:00

Random modnaR

Can you feel the building sway with you?

I surely did. It was freaking scary at first. But i got used to it afterwards.

Definitely an eye-opening experience. But i'd rather not have it so frequently.

***

One of my better friends got attached. Maybe its time for her to enjoy love embracing her rather than her embracing love.

She told me that her buy looks better than mine. I told her looks doesn't matter to me. Its how he treats me.

I felt blissful immediately after that. Thank you my dear.

***

I am actually getting used to the lifestyle i am having now. Its not that bad.

***

I used to just detest my company. Now i detest my job too.

22.80 Worth of Cab..

2007-03-02T09:22:00.000+08:00

So Expensive !!
Wah! i cant believe it. I paid $22.80 worth of cab fare, and its just from my home to workplace. So freaking expensive. i shall NOT take cab again. The fare consists of $2 for peak hour, $5 for ERP!!, and 15.80 for normal fare. I regretted waking up late lar. Idiot!! I Shall just own a car. grrr..

CNY!!
Nothing fanciful.
house visiting, eat goodies, play mahjong, play blackjack, watch tv.
Cant wait for CNY to end, then i can buy the shoes that i've been eyeing for before CNY. And by saying that, Ong Da Bian say i'm sounding like a bimbo. WHATEVER~~

Payday..
Cant wait for the next pay day. Hoping to see a rise in my savings account..

End of CNY

2007-02-16T16:54:00.000+08:00

Bad End...
People have half day, whole day off. But here i am, slogging myself to death, crushed by blames pushed to me, choked by so many things i wanted to say but i just cant say.

It is definitely not a good end for my CNY. And those zodiac prediction still say that those who are born in the year of ox is not going to get any better in the coming year. How shitty can it get?

Maybe i won't be accepted by any Uni.
Maybe after i quit my current job, i won't be able to find a job anymore.
Maybe i'll quarrel then DT will request for a break.
Maybe i just overspend until i owe until one body debt (qian dao yi sheng zai).
Maybe i'll become so obese that i cannot leave my house gate.

So sian. i DEFINITELY want a brand new GOOD START and a GOOD MIDDLE, and of course a GOOD END to this coming year.

I really hope Cai Shen, Shang Di, Da Bo Gong, Guan Yin Ma, Er Lang Shen, etc will all combine powers to bao you me.

情人节

2007-02-14T10:57:00.000+08:00

Qing Ren Jie...
我在此祝大家。。情人节快乐！

I don't need flowers on this day.. But any other day is welcomed. lol.
Nothing special for me on this day. Don't like the feeling of squeezing with people, fight for restaurants, queue freaking long just for ice-cream.

But i think i probably need Sunflowers in my office. To cheer me up when idiot comes looking for me.

Looks nice right? haha.

Note: Rainbow, quickly go order.

And yes, i'm so happy Chinese New Year is here. Although i don't really like the clothes i buy this year, but i'm so gonna buy more clothes!! haha.

Applied

2007-02-12T22:43:00.000+08:00

I've applied and my fate is not in my hands anymore.

Did my own personal survey of SMU IS.
Found both pros and cons.
I'm still confused.
Can i handle it?

If i go NUS or NTU, will i have friends there?

So sian.

Maybe i should consider uniSIM. Like Lj.

Leh-nis tell me to study sociology with him.
I can't. I will die.

I want to quit, but i cant afford to.
Who will "yang" me if i'm jobless?
I need a very long break.
A break from hypocritiness.
I hate my workplace, but i like my jobscope.

Die or Live?

Fucking Idiot

2007-02-02T14:43:00.001+08:00

I really cant stand it anymore.

You claimed no one is doing the right thing, and that INCLUDES YOU. Fucking tell us no one is owning the thing?? COME ON!! I GAVE YOU THE LIST LAST DECEMBER. DID YOU EVEN FUCKING LOOK AT IT?? BLOODY NO!!! AND I THINK YOU EVEN MISPLACED THE LIST. I HAD TO PRINT OUT FOR YOU AGAIN. WHAT THE FUCK??

YOU ARE THE ONE DELAYING THE PROCESS.

YOU ARE THE STUPID ONE RESPONSIBLE FOR THE LACK OF TIME.

YOU ARE THE ONE THAT SHOULD GO TO HELL.

fucking idiot!!

I did not present to you the list Rainbow and i compiled -- my bad.

You did not look at list for a godzillion years since i gave it to you -- your bad.

I fucking told you that those that are in last year's list are ticked, you need not look at them. You looked at them -- you stupid.

Rainbow did a schedule for christmas e-card, your irritating husband screwed it up. We abandoned the plan and now you claim we did not do the timeline -- your fault.

And you bloody go and die i tell you. Even if i were to starve to death, i won't stay here any longer. THIS I GUARANTEE!!

FUCK YOU.

Delicacy Weekend..

2007-01-29T11:16:00.000+08:00

Had a very very full weekend.

Saturday...

Sushi buffet with Yuanru, Joelly, Alan and Leh-nis. Weilun fly areoplane AGAIN
Sing song with Leh-nis
Watch A-PO-CA-LYP-TO with Leh-nis. Always trying my best to make him mis-pronounce the word

Sunday...

Went to Changi Village to eat breakfast with MOST of his family
Leh-nis wanted to go Ubin
Settled for Changi beach
Saw a corpse there
Walked to and fro to look for a bicycle kiosk
Cycled 45min with my bag on my shoulder, last 15min comfortably with the bag at the back of my bike. -_-"
Went home to rest. Was about to proceed to Paradiz to see the lottery winning numbers LIVE
Plan aborted, went to Thomson's famous prata house. Don't like crispy prata. Prefer normal prata

Today...

Last day of freedom in office
Sian

Taiwan Day 3 & 4..

2007-01-25T17:02:00.000+08:00

Taiwan Day 3..
Woke up as usual, 7+, bathe, gulped down breakfast, then off we go..

Went to a park, watch waterfall, river, stones, take picture and that's it. lol. That's the disadvantage of joining tour groups.

Joelly touched my pi pi

After that, we went to those marble factory or whatever you call that lar. Its another boring event of the day. We just whizzed past it without having alot of fun.

After all those boring events, its time to ENJOY~~~

Food

Snacks

And shopping equals to HEAVEN~~~

They sell tonnes of dogs in night markets. How i wish i can smuggle some back. *Wish Wish Wish*

Since we are already enjoying so much.. why not continue the fun right? So off we went to look for a KTV place after we dropped our luggage at the hotel.

SHE~~

Jo.. Lin..

SHE AGAIN~~~

Patty Ho..

Alan always pose those ugly poses.. lol..

Day 4..
Boring activities again. This time round, its to those temple kind of thing. Nothing special to mention about, so just photo.

Then off we fly to the THEME PARK..

At the mention of theme park, i feel so sad. We only took one exciting outdoor ride. We were brought there after a heavy sumptuous lunch. so we don't want to puke ourselves out. Decided to try the least exciting one. In the end, still the same outcome. Felt so awful after the first ride, decided to take a break by taking the VERY GIGANTIC ferris wheel. Didn't help at all. Then it started to drizzle. Ran for shelter at the indoor theme park.

Got ourselves terribly wet.

Didn't even have time to dry ourselves and we were being brought to a very nice and cosy restaurant for dinner.

And after food, there's bound to be shopping.. WEE~~

And after shopping, there's bound to be more food~~ so off we go after dropping out luggage.

Feel so hungry now.. grr..

Continue another time..

IT??

2007-01-18T13:01:00.000+08:00

Recently, Leh-nis asked me to help me do a lucky draw program. Started off by "learning" codes from the net, then slowly modify them to become what he wants. Had alot of bugs. Resorted to asking my bro for help. And after that, i've decided not to take computing courses.

Because...

I cant compete with him lar. It only took him 10-15 min to debug my programme, whereas i took like.. 30min but still cant fix it.

And i believe there are alot of programmers like him lar. If he were to further study, i believe he can excel lar.

BUT...

He needs to improve on his communication skills first. Always doing underpaid jobs.

Anyway, i just want to say that my bro's computer skills are damn good, and that i shall not follow his footsteps. lol.

BTW, i'm currently sourcing around for the courses that i want to study. And i think i'll just go back to my useless Business + IT path. Nothing interests me.

Damn..

P/S: i'm wondering should i do the rest of the days. No one seemed interested in my trip afterall. HECK. Shall just blog for future reminisce

2007-01-10T12:31:00.000+08:00

I'm here to update the Taiwan trip. like.. FINALLY!

Day 1
Was happily packing my bag, ready to leave for airport anytime soon, office had to call me and tell me to do work last min.

After rushing through work, we finally reached airport.

Had a late breakfast at BK then we proceeded to check-in. Group check-in, as usual, was at a snail pace. Just then, we heard a commotion break out.

"ARGH~~~ @#%#$^$&$%#$ ARGH!!!"

Saw tonnes of girls, ladies, women, screaming at the top of their lungs, and alot of shadowy figures zoomed pass. Idiotic Alan and Dennis was so "gian" to rush over there and join the crowd to take pictures of the idols. After the commotion was not so rough and noisy, i went to peep and see who's over at the PREMIER CHECK-IN LOUNGE.

OH. Its them.

After photo-taking, with Dean's fave star, we proceeded to board the plane. Like.. FINALLY!

Had a not so bad lunch onboard, entertainment, we became sian-ed, stoned and drunk.

After like 5 hours, we reached Taipei's Taoyuan Airport.

Cleared and finally off to our first location..

SHIHLIN NIGHT MARKET!!

Eat..

and eat..

and eat..

Not forgetting to drink too..

Then we walked over to the shopping side. HEAVEN!!

Time's running out. We have to check-in our hotel already.

BUT, we are all so young and the night is still young!

We walked out and see what can we do.

But we chose to eat again.

And let me tell you. I've been eating supper like i never ate before. Horrible lar. So from now on, you will hear me say "supper supper supper" over the next few day's trip. haha.

Day 2
Woke up early, took the bus to a place full of "dung" statue.

All we can do over there is just to take pictures.

Can you spot Joelly among so many pile of shit?

The ocean that we're looking at is.. i forgot.. some Pacific Ocean? So its totally different from the view you see in Singapore. Singapore when you look out of East Coast, you can only see island, island and more island. There, you can see horizon. So that explains the wave crashing in. So tall and forceful.

After all the shit digging, we went to have some good food. We went to Jiufen. Nothing fanciful there. Just bought some local delicacies and local products to bring home.

I bought those handphone clogs from this place. So nice and cosy. The boss is also super-friendly.

After that, we proceeded to take a choo-choo train to Hualien.

In the midst of waiting for the train, we had a MODEL PHOTOSHOOT SESSION!!

And its so obvious that i won the contest right.

Train came, everyone scrambled onboard. Throughout the whole journey, we see only one thing.

Yes.. you can claim its nice. but after like 1 - 2 hour of that, you wun "wow" anymore.

And yes, we finally reached around 3 hours later. Our face shows it all.

Looked so tired right? you bet.

We thought after the long, ardous journey, we can have some good food. We came to Hua Lian Hua restaurant. This is the first meal that i ate so little. Dun really like the food there. Worse still, after the meal, they brought us to buy fruits. As usual, i bought my favourite Dragonfruit.

After fruit-buying, we need to watch a performance.

Our expression can tell you how interesting it is.

Finally, its back to hotel, and it also means FREE TIME~~ So as usual, upon collecting our luggage, put it in our room, its time for SUPPER!!

The Xiao Long Bao here is recommended by our tour guide. Its superb i tell you. We had 2 dozen of it and another dozen of Jiao Zi. Feels like heaven~~ Ahhhh...

The we had Salt Chicken, Yan Su Ji.

Reluctant to go back and waste time sleeping, we walked around that area and saw this purple bridge.

We had no choice but to go back and sleep coz there isn't anything for us to shop.

Its nearing Christmas so there's a hell load of Christmas decorations.

There's this entertainment area whereby there are lots of games to play. We went to play the Air Hockey for quite some time, and then the foolsball? What an exciting game we had. haha. Screams can he heard 2 miles away. There's a children playground whereby ADULTS are not allowed to play, and see what we've got.

And he had difficulty getting out. lol. Serves you right.

Right. That's all for first 2 days. Will try to do the next few days in a few day's time.

Bye 06 Hello 07

2007-01-05T09:56:00.000+08:00

Bye 06 Hello 07
I had a good ending for year 2006.

I did not have a good start for year 2007.

Will blog about the Taiwan trip shortly.

As for now, i will curb my cravings for complaining in my first entry for 2007.

That's all. Bye.

TAIWAN!!!

2006-12-11T01:37:00.000+08:00

I'm finally going to Taiwan tomolo.. Long awaited break..

And i can officially declare that i'm indispensable in this company..

LOL!!

She'd better pay me well..

MWAHWAHWA!!

And my mum gave me 100 Sing bucks to spend.. lala..

Everything turned out so fine..

ITS A BEAUTIFUL WEEK~~

Many Thoughts..

2006-11-30T15:00:00.000+08:00

I Adore Mumble...
He's so cute.. I really love Happy Feet.. Feels like its acting out what's happening in the reality.. People don't accept those out of the norm.. But once he/she manage to accomplish something great, people go flocking back to them again.. Hypocrites.. That's why when Leh-nis told me something bout his band mates, i feel kind of sorry for that person..

Steven Lim VS Averil Chan...
Big hoo-haa these few days.. I noticed alot of people are dissing SL when they don't know what actually happened.. What if Steven's really telling the truth? i bet people are still going to continue to say things like "oh, he deserves it" kind of things.. I'm not here to say who's right or wrong because i, too, don't know what really happened on that day.. I'm just here to say that, judging people by the looks really really really does not do any justice to anyone. It will just make SUPERFICIAL you look bad.. really.. and if looks really matters ALOT.. then i can commit suicide, because i admit i don't look REALLY GOOD.. but still, i can say that at least i do not have an ugly heart..

Data-entry...
I simply hate entering namecards into database..

tedious
mono-tonous
boring
giddy
useless
sick
tired
eyes flower (Yan Hua)

BF VS Family...
My sis say i treat boyfriend better than family because i am very reluctant to help her buy her 3 small slice of cake.. she don't want to take her COMPANY TRANSPORT to Causeway Point and buy herself because she say from CWP, she still need to take a feeder bus back home, so its a waste of money (64cents).. whereas for me, i can walk, not on my way, to Bugis, help her buy, tell that person to pack in 3 separate boxes and take a very very long journey train home.. i'm seriously suffering from overdose of namecard entering..

So.. is it my fault?

Five Stars Travel...
They seriously sucked big time.. we need to attend a briefing this week.. i can only assume its going to fall on a Saturday and its only 2 days from now.. NOT EVEN A SINGLE DAMN CALL FROM THEM.. and when i call their office, ITS ALWAYS ENGAGED.. how am i supposed to plan my Saturday activities? so irritating can? Called their headquarters, the stupid lady said only my tour leader can inform me about it, and she will call me this afternoon or tomolo.. they seriously think everyone's free, sitting around and wait for them to call and expect us to go the briefing on Saturday.. DAMMIT!

Anguish...
I'm seriously feeling very pissed off.. by EVERYTHING.. DAMMIT!!

SMOU Dinner

2006-11-24T11:11:00.000+08:00

SMOU Dinner

Before going to the convention centre.. Miss B looked like a bian tai.. lol..

Re-took and my smile froze.. brrrr..

Me with Serene.. only met her a few times and now we're happily suan-ing one another.. hohoho..

Me, Miss B, Miss Ai Mei and Miss look-alike..

Us again.. the guy that helped us take this photo looks kinda cute.. too bad Miss B never take telephone number from him.. hurhurhur..

Me - The ancient way of smiling.. Miss B - Idiotic way of smiling..

Pretty us..

Stupid Miss B..

Us with the noisy clapper..

Pretty!!

Always ready for snapshot..

Acting natural when infact, i know she's taking a photo..

Lets toast to our look-alike!!

Nice haircut..

Table people.. nice company..
R R go away.. come again another day..

BDAY + Christmas Gift

2006-11-21T09:06:00.000+08:00

Leh-nis' 21st Birthday..

Leh-nis' 21st Bday Party..

The Banner Production Team..

Him with his Blueberry Cheesecake..

Sukuz minus alot of members..

US..

Christmas Present..
Dear Santa,

i've been a good girl this year.. Can i get my GUESS bag for this christmas?
In order not to make your life too difficult, i let you have a choice.. hur hur hur..

Thank you,
Jia Hui

Sick.. and Tired..

2006-11-14T14:25:00.000+08:00

Sick and Tired..
I'm tired.. I'm lazy.. I'm.. whatever lar..

Suay..
After Leh-nis' suay week, mine's here.. Got scolded at work, sort of got blamed for something wrongly, totally low in morale, etc.. I don't want to work anymore.. I'm feeling very down whenever I wake up..

Scolding..
"Do you have a scanned copy of my signature?"
"Erh.. *thinking hard* No.."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes"
"How easy is it to make one?"
"I need your signature on a blank piece of paper then I can scan"
"Ok. Are you sure you don't have my signature? I'm going to ask Rainbow."
"Yes"
"Ok. Bye."

Judging from this conversation, what's your observation about it?

The first thing that came to my mind is that she's feeling insecure again and was trying to find out did anyone forge her signature or something like that.. She called me back shortly.

"I need a scanned copy of my signature. Rainbow says you can access the invoices that you scanned for her. They have my signature on it."
"But the invoice paper is not white. If I were to use that, then it may not be perfect."
"Then ask YN to look under the clients section. Come on. Be more flexible and use your brain.. I don't want everybody to have a copy of my signature."
"I'll ask YN now."
"Ok. Bye."

Its my fault that I don't have her signature..
Its my fault that I didn't know that she needs that urgently..
Its my fault that everyone can get a copy of her signature..

Blamed..
Was doing Connect.
Tried uploading, cannot upload..
Called person-in-charge, she helped..
After a long time, cannot locate file..
Contact person-in-charge, she say she will check..
After file uploaded, preview went out..
After YN saw the preview, came and asked me question..
After answering question,

"WHAT?!?! 20 minutes!!"
*stares in bewilderment*
"Sorry bout my LOUDNESS, but why didn't anyone tell me??"
"How big is the file?"
"25MB"
"25MB? That's going to take a hell lof of time to download.. Do you have others?"
"No. That's what YN gave me."
"God, I didn't know it will take so long."
"I'll see what I can do.."

After solving the problem, YN came to me again..

"I didn't know that the test blast was not out yet. Next time, when you email them to approve the mail, CC me."
"But nowadays, I call them instead of emailing them. Its faster. And for test blast, there's a word (TEST) in front."
"I know. But when I have tonnes of emails coming in, I wouldn't notice that."

Its my fault that it takes 20 minutes to download the video clip..
Its my fault that the file cant be uploaded..
Its my fault that I did not inform you that was only the preview..
Its my fault that you missed out the (TEST) word..

At the end of the day, I reached home happily. Thinking back, when I was at work, everything seems so wrong. But the moment I reach home, happiness engulfed me. I don't have to worry about anything at all. That's the wonder of home. I should find a job that allows me to work from / at home.

I'm so sick of all these.. When can I have my long awaited freedom?

I don't want to cry to sleep anymore..

2006-10-31T15:23:00.000+08:00

wah lao.. how suay can one get??

Last night, on my way to meet Leh-nis for dinner, my white heels' strap came off.. sianz.. i had difficulty getting on the bus.. luckily i called him to bring my sandals along.. so i was saved..

Just now, when i bought an extremely huge and heavy cake and went to the bank, my sandals gave way on me.. damn.. this time round, i met my manager at the bank.. so she offered to help me carry the cake while i go look for shoes.. after happily buying a pair of white COVERED shoes, i happily collected the cake from my manager and walked back to office..

As i walk, i noticed the back of my leg has a tinge of pain.. and the pain GREW with each step i take.. when i only walked half the distance, i cannot tahan and was SO tempted to take off my shoes and walk.. but i tip-toed all the way back to the office.. and the first thing i did was to take off my shoes.. and holy shit.. got 2 DAMN BIG BLISTER.. how to wear the shoes next time.. haiz.. sianz.. wasted another $29.90.. shall try to do something to the shoes so it wun hurt.. haiz..

i'm so gonna take cab home later.. humph.. claim the company claim the company!!!

P/S: i had a 2 hour lunch.. mwahwahwa..

BOO~

2006-10-31T10:12:00.000+08:00

BOO~~

HAPPY HALLOWEEN~~

**

Happy Birthday Yvonne Lim..

**

Did a shitload of things but i dunno what to update. i dun even feel like updating it now.. but i feel i have a need to do it..

Movies Watched:
- Sinking of Japan (not good)
- The Guardian (good)
- Death Note (so-so)
- The Prestige (good)
- Rob B Hood (good)
- The Departed (so-so)

Quite alot of expenses ya?

Sat was Leh-nis bro's birthday party.. was hell noisy.. with kids screaming all over, adults chatting, while i watched shows.. but hope he enjoyed his birthday..

Now leh-nis dunno how to celebrate his birthday.. humph.. i also dunno what to get for him.. shall just get a small gift then.. the remaining i should know what to do.. lol..

Yesterday, someone complained to my female boss that my receiptionist skill not good.. damn her lar.. and knowing that stupid RBT, she called and told me bout it.. but i already did what i could do mah.. she die also dun wan leave her message or her number and she said she will call you again.. so i shall not persist mah.. dammit.. how i wish this year can pass by faster.. i really need to change job.. change to a more interesting and high-paying one.. humph..

pictures galore..

2006-10-13T16:28:00.000+08:00

just when i was about to post some happy post and pics, SHE, the idiotic SHE, had to come and scold me.. wth..
i shall just ignore her whenever i can.. and now i dun have the mood to blog anymore.. i shall just.. caption some pics.. that's it.. dun blame me for being lazy.. curse her for spoiling my mood.. =(

Cai Shen that we have to PAY before he gives us the lucky 4-D number that's not guaranteed to win any prizes..

Pagoda @ Chinese Garden

Eiffel Tower

Pyramid

Great Wall of China.. Hard to see eh??

Lian Hua Fairy~~

Taj Mahal?

Pi Sa Xie Ta.. but not that slanted.

anyway.. we tried to mimick a few faces of this insect..

Leh-nis was so lousy that he had to take a few shots to get it correct..

Finally the correct one..

This is my second shot and i got it.. i'm a born-model.. lol..

Another proof that i'm talented.. hurhurhur..

I dunno what's this.. can anyone tell me?

Erh...............

Taken on the Rainbow bridge.. nice.. =)

Haze on Saturday.. bad bad bad..

Piggy.. oops.. Peggy and me.. lol..

Glimpse of Stupid Shawn after alumni prac.. fun~~

Still hazy..

Went Vivocity on the first day of its opening..

Artistic? i dun think so..

such a waste of space.. should have built more shops to make it more fantastic for shopaholics..

Saw Ah Da there.. so ugly.. lol..

Attractive store..

Crocs GALORE~~

Leh-nis feel like doing that to me.. *blush blush*

GV Max.. not that big.. and noticed that its blurry? coz its taken by him.. tsk.. lousy skills..

Went esplanade.. and took a few photos with the nice lanterns..

Feels more like Chinese New Year..

Beautiful~~

Nice drinks.. i presume? anyway.. mine's the red one..

Right.. that's all.. hopefully that will sum up everything i've done last weekend.. and this weekend.. IS COMING~~
Hip hip hooray~~

Cant Blog

2006-10-10T09:32:00.000+08:00

I cant blog coz Leh-nis Tan Wei Ren "refuse" to send me photos.. so..

blame him..

blame him..

2006-10-05T18:02:00.000+08:00

Sickening...
Was going to buy lunch at the canteen.. damn.. i saw a fight happening right before my eyes.. but not for long coz when the fight started, i was already taking the escalator down.. but after that whole scene, i got totally disgusted and half of my appetite got washed away.. ugh..

Why can't they just talk nicely? at most, quarrel lar.. why must fight? worse still, the attacking guy's a malay.. haiz.. i dun wan to stereotype.. but.. why does it seems that.. most malays are quite uncouth? take those malay youngsters for example.. they purposely smoke in public to let people see.. whistle at girls, play loud music and make damn lot of noise at night when everyone's trying to sleep.. i know some that are nice and friendly too.. but why is it that the rest that i don't know seems to be the exact opposite? i'm not saying that chinese are very cultured people also.. but.. i'm always witnessing the other races' bad behaviour.. =( haiz.. i'm not going to label anything to the malays.. coz i think its not fair.. but hopefully, i get to see more improvements..

Colorquiz

2006-10-03T10:30:00.000+08:00

Took a quiz from colorquiz.com

Your Existing Situation
Seeks to share a bond of understanding intimacy in an esthetic atmosphere of peace and tenderness.

Your Stress Sources
Wishes to be independent, unhampered, and free from any limitation or restriction, other than those which she imposes of herself or by her own choice and decision.

Your Restrained Characteristics
An unadmitted lack of confidence makes her careful to avoid open conflict and she feels she must make the best of things as they are.

Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective
Her need to feel more causative and to have a wider sphere of influence makes her restless and she is driven by her desires and hopes. May try to spread her activities over too wide a field.

Your Actual Problem
Feels restricted and prevented from progressing; seeking a solution which will remove these limitations.

Booked...

2006-10-02T11:40:00.000+08:00

I'm Booked...
I'm booked from 11 Dec to 18 Dec.. (one day extra to rest from the long trip) Finally settled the dates for Taiwan trip.. Had a hard time deciding on the itinery and best dates to accomodate me and Leh-nis.. Joelly and Alan's fine with any date.. lol.. Settled for one that goes to a theme park.. most of the 7 days Taiwan tours dun include a trip to theme parks.. but.. dunno i got the guts to play all the exciting rides or not.. haha.. But one thing for sure, i need to STOP shopping and save the money to shop over at Taiwan.. hurhurhur.. Leh-nis promised me i can shop all i want over there, provided i got the money.. he wun even give me ONE CENT to shop over there.. *pouts*

Porridge Buffet...
Yuanru wanted to try the porridge steamboat buffet.. so we went to the Bugis one even after reading from a forum that the food there is not nice.. well, it was acceptable lar.. cant be too picky for such buffets.. (for pics, refer to Leh-nis' blog)

Anniversary...
A break through this time round.. he wished me first.. lol.. i completely forgot about it after the "Little Miss Sunshine" movie.. the movie is GREAT!! as great as the ratings that were shown on the newspapers.. although we're 3 rows from the screen, we find the movie worth it to watch on a weekend.. Oh.. we used the movie money "sponsored" by my bro.. (have to pay him ard 10 bucks for 3 movie money)

Went to KTV on the actual day afternoon.. sang from 4.30 to 8.30.. had to pick those weird weird songs to end that KTV session coz we couldn't find anymore songs to sing.. then he brought me to Botak Jones for late dinner.. cant say it was fantastic but for a Kopitiam like that, can be considered quite nice.. BUT, i wun make my way there just to eat their food.. its simply not worth the time and travelling fares.. too inaccessible, UNLESS i go my ah ma house then i can shun bian walk over there..

Weirdo...

2006-09-29T10:12:00.000+08:00

Weird Dream..
I SWEAR!! i had TWO weird dreams last night..

#1
I was in a israel country or something like that.. saw a few middle east people wearing their royal clothings with crowns (duh!) and they were in a.. FOOD MARKET.. where got royalties go food market eat de?? anyway.. i was barefooted, wearing short pants and tee, and i sat down and waited for Leh-nis and his bro to buy me a.. quick!! make a WILD guess..

he bought me a.. PEANUT PANCAKE!! (mian jian guo)

lol.. middle east got peanut pancake?

~loud ringing tone~
*reach out and fumble for my HP and snooze*

#2
Was in Hong Kong this time round.. was there with.. i forgot who.. 2 guys also.. then we were deciding where to go next.. then guy1 suggested cable car.. so we were at a mountain, and guy1 weirdly commented..

guy1: "WAH.. HK no escalator one!!"
*me and guy2 puzzled.. coz right infront of us there's a huge and long escalator that starts from the bottom of the mountain to the peak (where got such a long escalator one.. lol)*
guy2: "look infront!! that's already an escalator!!"
guy1: "but.. that one is going up.. we have to walk down!!"

~loud ringing tone~

That's how i end my weird dreams..

Why me..
sian.. last night had to stay back late to do some cock-up stuffs..

firstly, RBT2 talk loudly to me..

secondly, Rainbow also talk loudly to me..

not my fault mah.. or.. i think i'm not at fault lar..

RBT2 keep on telling me that i need to keep him in the loop of the things that he asked me to do.. correct mah.. i got inform him the problem i encounter.. then he wants to settle on the spot.. talk to the supervisor.. then ok.. i pass the phone to him..

Then Rainbow called me to say i should have called her and she could have handled the problem better coz she knows what exactly happened..

then how?? what am i supposed to do?? inform who first??

i also dun wan to let RBT2 talk to the person coz i know for sure he'll blow his top mah.. but.. he die also wan to settle on the spot.. what can i do??

eeyer.. so sianz.. do what also wrong de.. *sulks*

Happy Girl..

2006-09-28T09:27:00.000+08:00

Happy Girl... (Edited)
Recently, i'm a happy girl.. maybe cept for a few minutes last night.. but overall, i feel that these few days was extremely enjoyable.. =)

Hopefully the coming days can be this happy too.. lalala~~

New Shoes...
YAY~~ i got myself a new black flowery court shoes.. lol.. so nice can.. *grinz*

Shopping...
Went shopping with my mum and sis last night.. tried alot of clothes.. but din get to buy any.. its either.. no size.. or.. doesn't really suit me.. By the way, BYSI having season sale.. must see.. must see..

Mahjong...
I'm craving for MJ now.. khakis, please organise.. lol..

Starbucks...
I've been having Starbucks craving for the past week.. but i'm still waiting for a "chance" to go The Cathay to grab a drink from the Starbucks there.. why?? coz i got $5 voucher that is only use-able there mah.. lol..

Weekends...
Weekends faster come.. hee..

[Edit]

Why is it so that whenever i'm happy, my friends will be sad? am i a jinx? dammit..

Why are guys so contradicting and insensitive?
Why are girls always brooding over relationship troubles? (that including me..)
Why cant we live in a happily-ever-after land?

Damn..

Anyway, i'm still happy..

Happy for my happy days..

Happy for myself..

But i'm feeling helpless for my friends.. *sigh*

Tiring Monday

2006-09-25T10:42:00.000+08:00

Friday...
Went mooncake sampling.. nice.. had a few different kinds.. D24, Bailey's, champagne, lotus, white lotus, black sesame, etc.. bought the champagne and rum & raisin's ones..

Saturday...
Played 2 hours worth of badminton.. drained my eergy for the rest of the day.. was supposed to go out for dinner.. Leh-nis' mum bought pizza.. stayed at his place whole day rotting and watch soccer.. wasted my precious saturday..

Sunday...
Birthday celebration.. on the way home, there's a stall that sells lanterns.. originally, we wanted to get those traditional paper lanterns.. in the end, i got myself a "Cars" and he got himself a "Hello Kitty" lantern.. both battery-operated and damn noisy kind.. lol.. so funny.. we are going to enjoy the trip to Chinese Garden next friday.. trying to compete with the rest of the kids with the our noisy lanterns..

Dinner was as per normal.. except that my mum and dad keep asking him to eat.. mum keep on scooping heaps of food onto his plate, like he's the king.. *grr*

Was extremely full.. Leh-nis was amazed by the amount my family can eat.. after dinner was a dessert session.. then after dessert session was the cake session.. there's not a moment for you to feel hungry..

After all those eating, we proceeded to watch Miami Vice at Cineleisure.. Damn late movie.. 11.35pm, considering i have work the next day while he sleeps like a pig for the next 2 days.. but the show was nice.. definitely worth the money.. towards the end of the show, i noticed those that are sitting a few rows infront and probably those sitting behind are on the end of their seats.. lol.. most of them are leaning forward.. this goes to show how exciting the show is.. but one thing.. Gong-Li looks old and shagged in that show.. if only she can put on more make-up, that would be great..

Monday, Today...
Keep on yawning.. luckily bosses not here.. was supposed to meet with S.H.E. today.. but one of them cannot make it, another one fly aeroplane.. and by flying aeroplane, i mean news-less.. ugh.. see if i can grab the sleeping pig out for dinner.. since i dressed so nicely.. *roar*

Mooncake

2006-09-19T22:16:00.000+08:00

This Sunday is my mum's birthday.. she invited Leh-nis to my place for a delicious steamboat.. prepared his favourite dish, Chilli Crab.. dunno is his birthday or my mum's birthday.. anyway, he's feeling stressed about it.. lol.. his turn to understand how i felt everytime i go dinnering with his family.. lol.. especially when i never talk to his dad before, and his sis is not exactly that.. friendly.. *shrugs*

We're meeting on Friday evening to get mooncakes.. he's getting for my family, i'm getting for his family.. lol.. Li Shang Wang Lai..

Leng fly my aeroplane tomolo.. i guess i'll go Dhoby Ghuat to see if i wanna get the bag that i've been eyeing for..

Should i? or should i not?

I need to plan my annual leave.. how should i take it?

Oh.. boss scolded Rainbow BITCH today.. how interesting.. i'm sitting at my desk, watching drama, then inside the room, BITCH flying all over.. whoo.. exciting..

Shall go do Xin Li Ce Yan on Ch 56.. woo~~

Coke Light

2006-09-14T10:30:00.000+08:00

Early in the morning.. feel so angry already.. come and fight with me over COKE LIGHT.. damn lar.. piss me off.. tomolo.. i take off then they know.. and i shall take off.. TMD!!

Yes.. i ordered wrongly lar.. but.. they told me they are coming to change on Tues or Thurs and she said she will call me.. No calls till today.. early this morning, i called again.. then she said she'll come and change tomolo afternoon..

He come and asked why is the coke still here..

"They will come and change tomolo.."
"But you told me they are coming on Tuesday.. its already Thursday.."
"They said they will come either Tues or Thurs.."
"They made the mistake and they want us to compromise?"
*Blank look*
"This has to change.. Give me their number and name.. i'll give them a call.."

Damn him lar.. he's purposely making things difficult for them lor.. they also have a system to deliver goods one mah.. machiam he order alot.. everytime i call and order 3 bottles of water, they always..

"Erh.. 3 bottles ar.. *pause* ok.."

See how pathetic lar.. huh.. kns.. he'd better stop drinking so much coke light, 3-4 cans a day, before he gets coke light overdose or something like that.. dammit..

I SHALL TAKE MC TOMOLO~~~

P/S: i got stroke last night lar.. kept shivering.. i thot i got some weird disease or wat.. Leh-nis also say i'm shivering too much.. everyone.. please remember me.. sob sob..

Boring..

2006-09-12T16:36:00.000+08:00

I'm bored to tears..

Countless rounds of Freecells and drama..

Endless trip to the toilet..

Millions of SMS-es..

But, time just seems to go at its own snail pace..

By the way, i stupidly paste a link wrongly at my tagboard, thinking its for the personality test thing.. My bad..

If anyone's interested in doing that, which i think is pretty accurate, you can find the link on Leh-nis' blog.. lazy to copy the link from his blog..

Alrighty, boss just came back.. gotta go back and stare blankly at my screen, act like i'm working.. *yawn*

2006-09-11T09:30:00.000+08:00

Interesting analysis.. Quite accurate i should say..

Feeling so tired.. Quarrelled every single day from Friday onwards..

I keep thinking of the pretty bag i saw at Dhoby Exchange..

I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep..

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Lim Jia Hui
There are 9 letters in your name.
Those 9 letters total to 47
There are 5 vowels and 4 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 11

The characteristics of #11 are:
High spiritual plane, intuitive, illumination, idealist, a dreamer.

The expression or destiny for #11:

Your Expression number is 11.
The number 11 is the first of the master numbers. It is associated with idealistic concepts and rather spiritual issues. Accordingly, it is a number with potentials that are somewhat more difficult to live up to. You have the capacity to be inspirational, and the ability to lead merely by your own example. An inborn inner strength and awareness can make you an excellent teacher, social worker, philosopher, or advisor. No matter what area of work you pursue, you are very aware and sensitive to the highest sense of your environment. Your intuition is very strong; in fact, many psychic people and those involved in occult studies have the number 11 expression. You possess a good mind with keen analytical ability. Because of this you can probably succeed in most lines of work, however, you will do better and be happier outside of the business world. Oddly enough, even here you generally succeed, owing to your often original and unusual approach. Nonetheless, you are more content working with your ideals, rather than dollars and cents.

The positive aspect of the number 11 expression is an always idealistic attitude. Your thinking is long term, and you are able to grasp the far-reaching effects of actions and plans. You are disappointed by the shortsighted views of many of your contemporaries. You are deeply concerned and supportive of art, music, or of beauty in any form.

The negative attitudes associated with the number 11 expression include a continuous sense of nervous tension; you may be too sensitive and temperamental. You tend to dream a lot and may be more of a dreamer than a doer. Fantasy and reality sometimes become intermingled and you are sometimes very impractical. You tend to want to spread the illumination of your knowledge to others irrespective of their desire or need.

Your Soul Urge number is: 4

A Soul Urge number of 4 means:
With the Soul Urge or Motivation number of 4 you are likely to strive for a stable life. You tend to follow a rather orderly pattern and systematic approach in your endeavors. You have an inner desire to serve others in a methodical and diligent manner. You want to be in solid, conventional, and well-regulated activities, and you are somewhat disturbed by innovation and erratic or sudden changes.

Excellent at organizing, systematizing, and managing, you have a way of establishing order and maintaining it. You are responsible, reliable and in the final analysis, practical. Highly analytical, you can see your way through all sorts of situations and generally have a clear understanding of the issues. You are a very honest, sincere, and conscientious individual.

The negative side of the 4 is rigid, stubborn and somewhat narrow-minded. There is a tendency to hide feelings, or to really not be aware of real feelings. Avoid being too rigid and stubborn in your thinking, and try to always see the big picture rather than becoming to involved with the detail. Don't be afraid to take a chance once in awhile.

Your Inner Dream number is: 7

An Inner Dream number of 7 means:
You dream of having the opportunity to read, study, and shut yourself off from worldly distractions. You can see yourself as a teacher, mystic, or ecclesiastic, spending your life in the pursuit of knowledge and learning.

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5 April 1985

Your date of conception was on or about 13 July 1984 which was a Friday.
You were born on a Friday
under the astrological sign Aries.
Your Life path number is 5.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 3 & 9.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 8.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 6, 11 (Leh-nis is 11) & 22.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2446160.5.
The golden number for 1985 is 10.
The epact number for 1985 is 8.
The year 1985 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/20/1985 and ending 2/8/1986.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Ox.

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 7 April 1985.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 14 April 1985.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 20 February 1985.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 26 May 1985.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 2 June 1985.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Monday, 16 September 1985.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Saturday, 6 April 1985.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 19 February 1985.

As of 9/10/2006 9:20:28 PM EDT
You are 21 years old.
You are 257 months old.
You are 1,119 weeks old.
You are 7,828 days old.
You are 187,893 hours old.
You are 11,273,600 minutes old.
You are 676,416,028 seconds old.

Your birthstone is Diamond

The Mystical properties of Diamond
Diamonds are said to increase personal
clarity to help one see things clearly as well as be straight-forward and
honest. Supposedly, the higher quality the diamond, the better it is supports
these qualities.

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Opal, Quartz, White Sapphire

Your birth tree is

Rowan, the Sensitivity
Full of charm, cheerful, gifted, without egoism, likes to draw attention,
loves life, motion, unrest and even complications, is both dependent and
independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not
forgive.

There are 106 days till Christmas 2006!
There are 119 days till Orthodox Christmas!
The moon's phase on the day you were born was full.

Infected Ass

2006-09-05T17:01:00.000+08:00

I'm super dead meat.. i got an infected arse.. =(

My buttock is declared DEAD.. it Tuo Pi-ed, skin peeled, on me.. its not on that 2 big bun leh.. its between the 2 big, fat bun, somewhere near my shit-hole.. had difficulty bathing everyday, sitting down everytime.. damn.. why is it happening to me after so many rounds of Ubin-ing?? sucks lar.. everytime i shit, i need to ensure that i dun aggravate my wound but i still need to wipe my arse clean.. difficult task man..

P/S: my freedom is long gone.. *sob sob*

PP/S: Skipping amore later.. mum asking us to go COCA steamboat buffet.. hopefully.. she pay!! lol..

Tiring Weekend

2006-09-04T14:52:00.000+08:00

Tiring/fulfilling Weekend..
Sat..
Picnic!! been ages since i last picnic-ed.. like.. last year? or 2 years ago.. but that was with my family.. now its with friends.. although the food's not exactly that fantastic, but we still had loads of fun.. like.. Zhong Ji Mi Ma.. loser have to pick a food.. that's how we managed to garbage all the leftovers.. attendance as follows

- Yuanru
- Joelly
- Alan
- Wei lun
- Zhi Zi
- Edmund
- Darryl (Dennis' Bro)
- Dennis
- ME!!

After the very filling picnic, we went to Geylang for more food.. how pig can we get? but.. i only had Soya Bean Milk and Dou Hua.. not that filling.. some had Mian Xian.. horrible.. dunno how they can manage all the digesting.. After that some of us wanted to eat durian.. but the rest objected violently.. lol.. so we gave the durians up until.. maybe this week or next week.. coz.. this week may go Harry's bar since some of them are addicted..

Sun..
Woke up late for cycling session @ Ubin.. But goodie Winson promised to wait for me.. so.. i went ahead.. Damn lar.. their original meeting time was 9.30.. when i reached there at 10.15, they are still eating lar.. luckily i never go there so early.. lol.. attendance as follows

- Winson
- Zhi Hui (joined us slightly later)
- Kay Chye
- Kay Miang
- Danny
- Xiao B
- Weida
- Chiu Hao
- Yong Siang
- ME!!

Everytime i go, there are bound to be some accident.. and this time round, i'm one of them.. i'm going down a slope and i'm already braking to slow down.. but.. just when i was about to stop, i dunno why my leg gave way.. so i toppled sideways.. had a few scratches.. but nothing major.. Weida told me he also fell down at the exact same spot.. i pronounce that as "eerie spot".. After a while, we were on our way down a much steeper slope.. Weida and Chiu Hao were the first to do down.. when i reached the end of the slope, saw Weida and Chiu Hao stopped over there.. they had an "accident" there.. Both of them were going down so fast that Weida literally flew out of the bike while Chiu Hao toppled sideways to avoid crashing into Weida's bike.. both suffered injuries but nothing REALLY major.. after resting, a few more rounds of cycling, we all pronounced ourselves DEAD.. DEAD BEAT!! my leg's painful, my buttock's damn sore, my whole body's aching.. feel so old.. din feel that way on the first 2 trips to Ubin.. By the way, i got myself a little tanner just when i wanted to be a little bit fairer.. its all fated..

I'm yearning for volleyball now.. may go sentosa within these few weeks.. lol..

Mon..
My last day of freedom.. RBT1 coming back tomolo afternoon.. *sigh*

2006-09-02T14:13:00.000+08:00

I'm having a few bad days already..

and today, my PMS made it worse.. dammit..

i shall not go anywhere these few days..

and i cant imagine what will happen when my boss comes back on Tues..

Will i just shout at her?

Or will my PMS be long over??

Request by Rainbow

2006-08-29T16:28:00.000+08:00

A post requested by Rainbow.. (i forgot all the colours for rainbow.. lol)

erh.. my boss' stupidity is to the extreme that.. i think everyone in the company cant imagine.. she has been in this marketing line for.. 10 over years.. she should have some basic knowledge on business law.. (i studied IT law..)

Today, she dare to ask me to replicate an eNewsletter of a reputable company and host it on our own.. before that, she even made some changes to the un-permissioned copy of the eNewsletter.. and when i told her the concerns of the copyright issues, she dare to reply me

"Where did you get the breach of copyright idea"

I literally rolled my eyes and shouted out loud

"BASIC COMMON SENSE"

Worse still, she's the BOSS and she claims that she is so experienced.. but down to basic law and copyright issues, she know NUTS about it.. she can really close down this business and go back to school.. i'm kind-hearted.. so i explained to her in another situation..

"Take this for example.

You published an article on the website and a third party copied the whole article and hosted it on their website and made changes to it without gaining your permission.
It is an infringement of copyright. Don't you agree?

The same theory applies to this situation.

Therefore, i'm concerned this is the same case if we were to make any changes or host the landing pages."

She finally realise what was wrong.. so she said..

"let me think about this. "

You should really think about it.. and i mean.. THINK.. THINK HARD.. THINK HARDER..

Close??

2006-08-28T16:29:00.000+08:00

Monotonous Life..
Alot of people, mostly Dean, have been complaining that there's a lack of update in my blog.. well, i did alot of things for the past few weeks but i think its just normal routine and not worth blogging so.. i just lived with it.. lol.. but if you're really interested in my boring routine, feel free to visit Dean's blog.. (Dean: oh.. no.. no.. i'm not saying your blog's boring.. oops.. =X)

Karen's Birthday Gathering..
All girls gathering.. a noisy and fun one.. took tonnes and tonnes of photo, including my personal 写真集.. so sex-xy and ho-ot.. lol.. cant post photo yet coz.. NO ONE BOTHERED TO SEND ME ANY OF THE PHOTOS.. they owe me tonnes of photos.. like.. Janet's bday, YR's bday.. and not, Karen's bday.. SEND ME!!!

Harry's Bar..
Virgin time to Harry's Bar.. nice.. but if we were given proper tables, that would be better.. would like to try it with other group of friends.. just to chill out there and.. drink comfortably..

Motivation @ Work..
The only motivation @ work is the cute ang moh that so coincidentally takes the same shuttle bus as me every morning.. today i went to work quite early.. thinking "he wun be so early today".. when i was alighting.. GOD! i saw him sitting at the back.. he's always waiting till everyone alight then he'll be the last.. me, lazy to squeeze with the rest, also did the same thing.. so its always me and him at the back.. he's so.. handsome lar.. with his.. sharp features, nice ash blond color hair, godly height, endless cute stuffs bout him.. *drools* even Rainbow says he's cute.. woo~~ hopefully, he'll be my motivation to go to work everyday.. haha.. shall try to wink at him tomolo if i see him again.. lol.. (nah.. i'll probably die of shyness.. *giggles*)

Sweet VS Bad

2006-08-25T16:21:00.000+08:00

Just when i thot all guys are rotten eggs, a sweet guy came along with a bottle of SWEET honey.. WOO~~ he knows that i'm on MC last last week.. then today, he came and asked me this..

"How are you?"
"Great!"
"Heard you're sick?"
"That was....... last week?"
"I bought a bottle of sweet honey. As sweet as me!"
me and Rainbow *laugh*

Such a sweetie!!

Aiya.. all nice guys are extinct already.. (Guan: i know you will put up your hand.. lol) he's already married le lar.. he's a colleague of my boss.. not exactly my colleague.. so.. *shrugs*

Maybe he got a thing for me?? i'm too irresistible. LOL~~

Fireworks..

2006-08-14T17:27:00.000+08:00

Friday..
Last min decision to watch fireworks.. although it was extremely crowded, we were early so we had a great spot. It was terribly nice. i made a wish upon the fireworks.. everytime i see the colours, the shine, the light, i feel so blissful. i think fireworks are meant to bless upon people, bring happiness to people. i have this hair-standing feeling everytime i see fireworks..

Saturday..
Badminton with Sukuz. was definitely a good workout. caught the last session of fireworks. although not at an ideal location, but nevertheless, it still awed me. i, made a wish too. but its the same as previous day's. hopefully the beautiful fireworks can make my wish come true. =) i'm waiting for that day to come.

i vow to go to every session of the fireworks next year. i will go there early. i will sit in a best spot, admire them and make a wish.

I wish..
I wish..
I wish..

p/s: Things ain't going smoothly at the moment yet. it's just like a rollercoaster ride.. but i will survive.. i will..

Unrequited love??

2006-08-10T15:13:00.000+08:00

I often ponder.. are there such things known as unrequited love?

I used to think there is.. i used to think i love this way.. i gave him whatever i have, whenever i can.. i like to see him smile.. i like to see him laugh.. i like to see his eyes full of tears of joy.. in short, i like to watch him silently.. as sincerely as i wished things never have to change, i started to change.. i expected things in return from him.. i want him to promise me things in return.. i demanded things in return from him.. i dun like it this way.. i want it all back the way it was..

I couldn't breathe last night while watching the NDP.. my chest was so tight that it felt like exploding.. if i were to die on that very night.. will i ever regret not living my life to the fullest??

No.. i wun.. although i've only lived for 21 years, 3 months and 5 days, i've already loved a man with all my life, i already have friends that i can count on for life, i already have a nanny that i can love for a few more lives.. if i were to regret, i would regret not finding a goal in my life.. everyday, i work aimlessly, no goals, no future, no ambition.. just a walking corpse.. If i ever have to die..

I would like to tell my man, i love him alot..
I would like to tell my friends, i love them alot..
I would like to tell my nanny, i love her alot..

Maybe i should love myself from now on?

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A lousy love story begins like this..

They weren't even friends to start with. The only common thing in them was music. Or rather, band.

He was a quiet and sort of an anti-social guy. Came for practice on the dot an went home straight after the practice.

She was an outgoing and friendly girl in the band. Everyone knows who she is and she’s always available in the band room most of the time. That's how she got to know so many people.

She had a good friend, B, in the band, who is also outgoing and outspoken. B started teasing the guy for wearing bright-coloured tees to band prac. That was how they started knowing each other.

Whenever she sees him, she'll also start to tease him, in hope to get more of his attention. They soon found out that they had a common friend, N. N was his secondary school band mate while she's the girl's poly classmate. It was then, they had more topics between them. The girl secretly fell in love with the guy. She confided in some of her friends but all of them told her not to confess. According to their observation, the guy seems fine with his present status, which is single. Since then, they chatted every night on MSN and IRC. It was then they know more about each other, except the fact that she loves him.

Nine months have passed and they still remained as friends, but not normal friends, but close friends. It was then the girl decided to give up her feelings, for she thinks that it will not work out anyway. They remained as friends. They got to know more friends and eventually hung out with the same group of friends. They practically meet up everyday with that group of friends. The girl's heart was a little shaken. Her feelings for him had once again being triggered. But this time, she was determined not to let her feelings go astray. She chose to treat him as a friend, like how they used to be.

They went on a band tour. They got even closer. One night, he suddenly called her into his room.

"Do you think J likes me?"

That was when the girl's heart broke into not thousands, but millions of pieces. It was then she realised she has still got feelings for him. She had to act as if nothing happened and had to tease and give him advice as usual. But deep down in her heart, she was crying. The guy eventually got closer with J and the girl went to join another group of friends to avoid any contact with him so she wouldn't have to see them get closer day by day.

The trip ended and they returned to their homeland. They continued to hang out like how they used to. But friends around them thought that it would be great if the girl and the boy can get together as they have known each other for quite some time and they understand each other pretty well. They had a talk with the guy.

"Who will you choose if both of them like you?" (Refers to J and the girl)

He was stumped for words.

The band started spreading rumours that the guy is interested in J. By the time the rest of the band mates knew bout the rumours, he already have an answer in his heart.

One particular night, he missed his bus after band prac and he decided to take a train home. She waited for him at Jurong East station. She realised that he was not in a good mood and tried to cheer him up. When she reached her station, he alight the train together with her and had a talk nearby. They sat at a playground and started to talk late into the night. He suddenly popped the question.

"Do you want to be with me?"

She's stunned. She did not know how to reply him and how he or she is going to deal with the rumours going on. She did not agree. She wanted him to think carefully and not regret anything later on. He was determined that he will not regret.

Determined to get hold of her and not let her go, he will not go home unless the girl says yes. His perseverance and determination finally touched her. She agreed and they got together on the 1st of July. Friends around them were overjoyed. Her friends are happy for her as her love was being reciprocated.

They are still together now, and they have arguments every now and then. But they do not give up this relationship easily, for they know it is hard to come by too.

I am still glad that I agreed to his question.

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I cried after reading this. I wrote this when we are at still at the honeymoon period. Every feeling and every love was expressed in that story. Till today, i have kept this story in a very safe place - my heart. Obstacles are never easy to overcome. Friends told me i should have given up in this relationship. But i know i never will. I still believe part of the story is true, part of it is still a mystery. will we end like fairy tales of happily ever after, i don't know. all i know is that i have to keep on making this miracle that happened to me a reality.

I love you dearly.

Deeply missing you,
jH

Damn sick..

2006-08-08T12:56:00.000+08:00

I'm sick.. AGAIN.. for the Nth time.. super sian.. dunno why nowadays my immune system's so fragile.. *sniff sniff* oops.. Dean said he'll slap me if i sniff my nose again.. ugh..

Haven been home for quite some time..

Weekends..
was over at YR's chalet.. had a kind of relaxation chalet.. no crowd on Sat and Joelly and Alan's meeting peeps for dinner.. so me and Dean just watched SuperBand then went to eat a super duper yucky meal from KFC.. i think i'm not gonna eat another KFC pretty soon.. i got a sore throat the next day..

Sunday was.. pretty ok.. considering i know most of her friends that came.. Poly friends, Band friends.. cept for her gang of SMU friends.. one if them is very very irritating..

One exceptionally tall girl, she wanted to help BBQ.. but YR's mum and bro was occupying it.. so she helped to fan the charcoal while Shawn's in-charge of addnig charcoal.. but after Shawn finished adding the charcoal and the flame's pretty acceptable, she's still happily fanning it.. and there she was, fanning the charcoal for.. an hour?? lol.. she fanned until Shawn cannot tahan and told YR to sort of tell her friend to stop fanning..

Another incident is also with the same girl.. she kept on looking at us, us = Joelly, Alan and me, while we were standing and eating our desserts.. and when Joelly looked over to her direction, she quickly hugged her BF's waist.. as if to show that he's taken.. totally OMG.. First things first, her boyfriend i think.. not even half of Alan's looks lor.. he even looks like an Ah Beng lor.. Secondly, she's the one who kept looking at us lor.. nad when we just looked over to her direction to find YR, she thought we're aiming either at her BF or her.. *roll eyes* damn BHB..

Last incident involves that girl's boyfriend.. there's a rumour that goes..

"The birthday girl cannot cut the whole cake."

So all my daughter wans me to cut.. so i went to offer her my service.. then as i was busily cutting, YR's bro helping me to take the plates and YR's SMU friends gather round to hit her buttock one by one, the boyfriend came over and irritate me..

"can i have a small piece one? i'll just share with my GIRLFRIEND.."
*continues to cut cake*
"i'll just have a small one to share with my GIRLFRIEND.."
*YR's bro passed him a piece of cake*

so irritating.. why must he emphasize on SHARE WITH MY GIRLFRIEND.. i never even asked him why he wan to take a small piece considering his humongous size.. neither did i ask him who is he sharing the cake with right?? both of them make a perfect couple.. a perfectly IRRITATING couple.. grr..

Monday..
Took off.. was really very sick.. i had a hard time falling asleep on Sunday.. throat's killing me, nose is suffocating me (nose block).. had no choice but to take MC..

Tuesday..
wanted desperately to take another day off.. or if possible, half day.. but.. i dun think i can.. work's too much for me to take another day off.. i'm still not well enough yet and considering the medicines i'm taking are making me drowsy.. how am i supposed to work?? i made so many mistakes that i think my manager is not happy with me.. but what to do.. i'm really very weak.. *cough cough* DAMN.. cough's invading me already.. haiz..

Anyway.. i'm gonna watch fireworks later.. hope i'm well enough to last through the whole thing.. and i'm meeting Joelly and Alan for abstract movies.. lol.. again, hopefully i can withstand the drowsiness..

Wednesday..
YAY.. holiday.. finally can rest.. i need rest rest rest.. but i want to go National Stadium and watch the actual show lar.. haiz.. who wants to donate tickets to a sick lady??

OT~~~

2006-08-04T15:35:00.000+08:00

What the hell is wrong with her?
she like last minute adrenaline rush??
then i shall not OT tonight.. damn..

before i leave the company last night, she told me this..
"Be prepared to work late tomolo!!"

i was thinking..
"WTF?? why MUST i work LATE??"

i've deen idling away for the past few hours.. i just approached her for something to do just so she dun push it to me last min and make me stay late.. but..

she DIE also dun wan to pass me something..

WTF is wrong with her?? grr... make me so angry!!

i shall tell her i'm not going to stay late tonight if she REQUEST me to stay.. its not as if i dun wan to complete faster.. she's the one who doesn't want to finish it faster.. ARGH~~ KILL HER!!

Can we dun love?

2006-08-03T09:14:00.000+08:00

So many troubles on so many people's mind.. i'm shocked to hear from one of my guy friend that he may not marry the girl he's dating now if someone better comes along.. they have been together for.. at least 5-6 years.. another couple seems to have alot of probs.. both of them are entering a new phase of life, thus it have took an impact over their relationship.. but i believe that's not the only cause.. luckily, another couple who have been together for at least 7 years are planning for ROM.. that's one good in two bad news..

I used to think communication is a vital factor for a good relationship.. but after so many heart-wrenching stories, i have come to a belief that.. nothing is an important factor.. both of them may be communicating well, but it may not work out.. every thing that comes into your life will affect any decisions you are going to make..

They say.. love like you have never loved before..

Janet say.. when you give them the power to love you, you also give them the power to hurt you..

i say.. what will happen if you dun get love but you get hurt all the time?? does that mean.. you'll be hurt like you've never been hurt before??

I have always believed that outsiders are not allowed to tell any of the troubled couple what to do.. but if you have seen your best/good/just friend feeling sad, crying everyday over that relationship, may its time you lend him/her a hand? we do not wish to see our friends sinking down the boat of relationship.. neither do we try to make him/her leave the boat easily.. its a tough decision..

To you know who you are 1:
He and you are entering a new phase of life.. maybe its time to review the relationship again.. i know you may have tried to do that and he may not be interested.. do not worry.. at least you have tried your best.. maybe you should also take a step back.. and try to leave some space between you and him.. let both of you have some space to think..

if it doesn't work out, maybe its because you and him aren't meant to be.. but.. maybe a few years down the road, when both of you are more clear about what you want in a relationship, both of you may just get back and get it worked out..
if it does work well, i'm sure you and him will be better than last time..
its all a matter of give and take.. do not give and give.. it will not do you any good.. let him do his part of giving too..

To you know who you are 2:
You have tried giving him up.. but you did not do it in the end.. maybe you have not tried enough.. maybe.. you're really meant to be with him.. but we have only one life.. why do you want to live and love in misery?? i heard from others that singlehood is not at all boring and lifeless.. maybe its time to indulge in singlehood once again and live your life to the fullest until the next better person comes along??

i know you'll tell me that you still love him.. but.. pure love cannot maintain your relationship and wat's more, maybe you're the only one putting in your heart and love.. same thing, take a step back.. breathe and look around you.. the world continues to spin and you too, should continue to smile and be happy..

All these stories are making me less and less secured in this world.. anything can happen.. you may think that it will not happen to you.. but the next thing you know, you're the next person everyone tries to console.. haiz.. love is never fair and square and is forever complicated.. why cant love be simpler?? why cant everyone benefit from it?? can humans dun love?? i wish they could..